Lily

It’s really bad I thought I would hate my new school but I really love it like I miss my friends so much but at the same time I feel like I am really in classes that I should be in with ppl who are on the same level as me

What hurts me is I start school next week LIKE GUYS where did my summer go I swear I was just finishing school and now I am going back already like Ik I finished in my old district on the 31st (well 27th but the last day was the 31st) and my new district we start on the 4th of next August I JUST GOT OUT IN MAY but for my old district they have another week off like this isn’t fair 

Guys I started band camp ( I MADE FRIENDS AND EVERYONE THERE ARE SO SWEET, OPEN, AND OKAY WITH ANYTNING) I love it already

The demons I am fighting is I go back to school a week before everyone Ik other than my 3 siblings who life with me soooooo my friends gonna be texting in the group chat than it’s gone be me not answering until the bus ride home like boy

This summer is going by so fast but also I feel like I haven’t done anything like finished school went to my grandparents came home, 4 days later my cousin comes down, like a week after she leaves I go back to my grandparents, and will I am there me, my sister, and my friend make plans to hang out with my friend, come home, go to practice, go on vacation ,come home from vacation, little sisters birthday, 4th of July, go to my sisters house for the weekend, go to my friend, that’s all I have done all summer

wtf do you mean I was up when Conan gray posted his new music video BUT I DIDNT GET THE NOTIFICATION LIKE UMMM GUYS WHY AM I SEEING IT 14 HOURS LATER

What makes me crash out on a Dailey basis is that my bsf is in a almost 1 year relationship (I love her and am soooooo happy that she found a “good” bf) but it’s like bro u have a bf off almost a year and I am just over hearing living like not in a good way

I love how I can causally go from 2 days ago craning out in the middle of the night crying sooooo much to being up late to read a book like wtf is that matter with me a lot but still

My causally crashing out and bawling cause I just realized that with me moving from the apt I live in to the trailer where looked at I have to move school when I just got registered and just yesterday was crashing out cause I was scared for there marching band and now I won’t even get to march next year bcs the high school I am gonna go to is def gonna have started there marching band and there not gonna care I have marched 2 years already and got accepted in to the school I was gonna go into bcs there so much bigger and better and I can’t do it.

Me when I almost started crying today cause I realized I have band camp in like 17 days and I ain’t gonna be there with my step siblings and friends I am gonna be there with all new ppl who all know each other mainly like I ain’t gonna get bored during breaks and walk over to the flute section and get to gossip about my friends new talking stage instead I will be sitting alone by myself maybe with a couple girls I am kinda friends with but they don’t really know me and it’s kind awkward like I ain’t gonna be able to be the girl who can be friends with everyone and help yall out cause I don’t know crap like broooooooo and I will not get to see my friends at school and band practice I WILL HAVE TO BEG TO BE ON WATER STATION TO JUST SEE THEM AT A COMP begging my mom to go to a parent pre-view and a game