This is sort of farewell-ish post to Wattpad probably no one will read.
I wasn't here on Wattpad because I used to love writing. It was also partly because I thought writing was the only thing I was good at. I used to think - rather foolishly - if I'm not a novelist, I'm no one.
And oh boy, I remember I became so obsessed with writing from 2015 to 2019, it almost feels like yesterday. That obsession, that hunger to push my limits, that struggle to keep getting better, that sheer will to write like a pro. I was so obsessed with the idea of winning a Watty that I thought everything would change for good if my novel got a Watty. And I did win it in 2019, it was the single biggest achievement of my life till that point. But honestly, I wasn't feeling optimistic back then because I was already quite older (I was in my mid-20s), and I wasn't doing so well in my professional career, which I felt I should have been. I used to secretly stalk timelines of some of my schoolmates who went to Canada, the USA, Australia, etc., and were absolutely killing it there. And here I was, dreaming an impossible dream of becoming a full-time novelist. And... of course, my bubble burst very soon because family responsibility was burdening my shoulders… I had to quit writing my novel and force myself to focus on my professional career.
