Shitaki

Decided to see what would happen if I looked up the word “Jewish” in the tags and I had to legit send my friend a screenshot of a fanfic cover because it was a Percy Jackson WWII AU where he is a Jewish guy who ran away to America??? Also I’m Jewish so I’m able to judge here. 

(3/3) I have brought up the thought s around bedtime before and they seem super worried but I tell them it’s only occasional. I told a close friend of mine in depth about them and they told me to tell someone but I don’t know how. The conversation started because I sent her something sad about a story we both enjoy. Basically what I’m saying is that, please talk to someone and please give me tips. I just wanna have a day where I don’t have to worry about this. 
          Thank you,
          Shitaki

(2/2) because they usually appear when i am going to bed but then I try to focus on better thoughts that I can’t fall asleep. I also realized that, though I have been to a therapist, I haven’t talked about these things. I mean they weren’t happening at the time and we thought I was fine so we stopped the sessions. But now it’s worse and I want to talk to someone about it but I just can’t because I don’t know how to. (2/3[my bad])

Today I had 2 crying sessions for similar yet different reasons. I’m going to be talking about the second one. 
          So I have been struggling with anxiety and adhd for a while, like since kindergarten, and so those mixed means the mind will wander into darker, more anxious ridden thoughts. Today, as I was sitting in my parents room my mind wandered and I started thinking about the usual things(how much time I wast, how little I socialize, how loud I can be, etc.) and then I realized that these thoughts cause me too lose a lot of sleep(1/2)

Me: *is terrified of moths*
          
          Instagram: *shows me a cute moth plushy*
          
          Me:OMG HOW DO I LIKE?!

dsmp Dream: *slaps dsmp Tubbo, Tommy, and Ranboo on the back* these bad boys can hold so much trauma!
          

Not me planning on making a interactive comic with my OCs from an AU of the Respawn but changing canon characters out for more OCs. Couldn’t be me. 

Fun story: 
          So I was in premiere chat for a song and everyone was talking about bees so I started asking if people wanted pollen and then this one person asked. We ended up talking in premier chat and then moving to the comment section me and this person are now friends and I love that that’s the story of how we met. Lol

Not me thinking of somehow connecting The Respawn to Irene and Co. 

I’m making a oneshot and I keep putting too much detail in unimportant things because the story is only that chapter. I have like 1300 words and the major plot has only been talked about in the beginning 300 words! Also this may or may not actually become a weird oneshot where I publish where I’m at and then when I write a little bit more I’ll update it but probably not. Tell me your opinion on this.