ShadowWolfBI

Death seems nice right now.
          	I don't remember anyone willingly giving me a hug, in a long time.
          	I want to have contact with people, but I feel like I'm being selfish and needy. No one knows that I love getting hugs and human contact. I just want someone to hug me and make me feel the tiniest bit better. I'm not looking forward to the end of lock down and school starting again. I have no one I would consider my friend other than my twin sister but she doesn't talk to me and my girlfriend had to move. She was my only friend when my sister was in hospital for 4 months. She was my person, the only one who didn't leave me. 
          	But she did. 
          	It isn't her fault she moved, but I just feel so alone right now. 
          	I know you will probably read this and think I'm seeking sympathy and attention. 
          	But I'm not. 
          	I'm not in a great place right now. 
          	I don't want to be here. 
          	I just want to fast forward to when I'm in collage living my own life freely being who I am with and being with the one person who chose to be by my side. Being with the girl who truly makes me happy. 
          	I still won't be updating for a while. 
          	I'm sorry. I just don't have the right mindset now.
          	:/

Nellewritesforfun

@ShadowWolfBI hey this is ellen i love you im really sorry for my inactivity   i had to get new everything because my phone broke my numbers still the sane tho !
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PennywisesDaughter

@ShadowWolfBI   You are not selfish nor needy to want something that might help the pain to away even if it is just for a few seconds. You don't seek attention by just simply state your problems.  And I get what you mean about just wanting a hug.  I wish I could give you a hug right now instead of using my bad writing skills. I wish I could do more than pat you on the back and say everything will be   fine.  So if I'm some way it helps my pms are always open if you ever need an online friend.  <3
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ShadowWolfBI

@SunAngelsShadow thx. I really appreciate your reply. Sending virtual hugs too.
          	  ^¬^
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angelsofsolace

Hey hey! It's R U OK day so I just wanted to ask if you're okay? :)
          (Sorry if I'm disturbing though I-)

angelsofsolace

@Pessimistic-PANcake Ohhh, I hope it gets better for you. I'm doing okay! Thanks for asking!
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Pessimistic-PANcake

@SunAngelsShadow sorry. This is shadowwolf, i deleted the email for the axxount you messaged me on. So im only seeing it now. This is my new account btw. Lol anyway, thx for reaching out to me on r u ok day. I really apprexiate it, more than yiu know. Im doing the best i van at the moment, but life is giving me a hard time at the moment. I'll get through it tho. How are you doing? Also you can just respond on the conversation on the account im responding to yiu on cause i wont get any notification if you respond on this one. :)
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ShadowWolfBI

Death seems nice right now.
          I don't remember anyone willingly giving me a hug, in a long time.
          I want to have contact with people, but I feel like I'm being selfish and needy. No one knows that I love getting hugs and human contact. I just want someone to hug me and make me feel the tiniest bit better. I'm not looking forward to the end of lock down and school starting again. I have no one I would consider my friend other than my twin sister but she doesn't talk to me and my girlfriend had to move. She was my only friend when my sister was in hospital for 4 months. She was my person, the only one who didn't leave me. 
          But she did. 
          It isn't her fault she moved, but I just feel so alone right now. 
          I know you will probably read this and think I'm seeking sympathy and attention. 
          But I'm not. 
          I'm not in a great place right now. 
          I don't want to be here. 
          I just want to fast forward to when I'm in collage living my own life freely being who I am with and being with the one person who chose to be by my side. Being with the girl who truly makes me happy. 
          I still won't be updating for a while. 
          I'm sorry. I just don't have the right mindset now.
          :/

Nellewritesforfun

@ShadowWolfBI hey this is ellen i love you im really sorry for my inactivity   i had to get new everything because my phone broke my numbers still the sane tho !
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PennywisesDaughter

@ShadowWolfBI   You are not selfish nor needy to want something that might help the pain to away even if it is just for a few seconds. You don't seek attention by just simply state your problems.  And I get what you mean about just wanting a hug.  I wish I could give you a hug right now instead of using my bad writing skills. I wish I could do more than pat you on the back and say everything will be   fine.  So if I'm some way it helps my pms are always open if you ever need an online friend.  <3
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ShadowWolfBI

@SunAngelsShadow thx. I really appreciate your reply. Sending virtual hugs too.
            ^¬^
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engfanatic04

Hey, I saw in your comment ( from Brooke Ashley 's giveaway book) today that it is your birthday on 19th July.
          So I figured I might drop in and wish you.( bit late, I know)
          
          Happy  Birthday!! ❤️ 
          

engfanatic04

@ShadowWolfBI  Sure! Thank you. I don't have friends at school either. Lol. It is totally okay. ❤️ 
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ShadowWolfBI

@engfanatic04 thanks.
            I would love to be friends with you. Honstely I don't have that many friends because most of the kids in my school don't like me. You're one of the nicest people I've ever talked to. ^¬^
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engfanatic04

@ShadowWolfBI  Hi. Well, I like making people happy and everyone deserves to be happy on their birthday. I am really glad I made your day a bit brighter. It is really a small thing. 
            
            Wattpad is indeed a great community. We can be friends too, if you want! ❤️  Take care.
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ShadowWolfBI

I'm officially 15 today.
          ^¬^
          Yay
          I feel old now. 
          :/
          Lol
          I'm lonely right now. 
          °¬°

angelsofsolace

@ShadowWolfBI HAPPY BIRTHDAY ❤️❤️❤️
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Soggy_Donut_X3

@ShadowWolfBI  HAPPY WOUMB EVACUATION DAY!!!!!!! :)
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Bi-and-Bored

happy birthday!
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