Alive 'n Stressed

your sins are not forgotten

There's a lot to be said on how to deal with the past, especially with painful subjects such as this one. Some say it's best to leave the past to the past and only deal with it when necessary, others would say that confronting it is the only way to properly deal with it. I wonder what can be said of how we handled this in the aftermath. It's a topic solemnly touched by those of us who still speak to one another, and when it is brought up it's always followed by a swift change in subject. While these actions are the easiest, they've come at the cost of our friendships for we never truly progressed past it.
          
          While I'd love to say I've moved on, that this is all just a sad memory for me, it haunts me. I feel it in every silent chat and every old message and it taunts me in every panic and anxiety attack and nightmare. Maybe I'm being childish or stubborn, but it still effects me and I just need to get it off my chest. While no one person is to blame, we all could have handled it better, both in the moment and in the aftermath. So, even though I'm almost positive none of you will see this, I'm sorry. 

I've taken a trip down memory lane and there's just something I need to say about something from two years ago. For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about or don't want to bring up old memories ignore this and the message above. 

Forgot I used to do follow for follow. 
          I'm not enjoying having to go through and check every damn profile so I don't unfollow someone I actually want to follow. 

The first story I've gotten genuine motivation to write in a while is a train wreak, I'm still writing it. 

Um I may have spilled more water on my keyboard, so I'm not going to be around much more than reading and commenting until I have the things nessesary to download the app on my phone or until I get a useable computer

I just posted the first chapter and prolong of a book I want to get around to writing In my one shot book. I want to see what you guys think!

Boop

Awww I just read your obbsesions. Love ya Nic<3

You're really dumb