@SewDa_Pop I lost my mother back in June of 2018 and this feeling stays. You live your life, but your mother will always be there on the fringe, always on your mind. It's still unfathomable to me how my own mother had been so bouncy and happy one day and in a coma within a week. There are always these things that take place in my life and my children's lives and there's this constant tenure in my mind that she should be here, she should have been a part of this.
Life goes on, the ache becomes manageable, but it never really goes away. And there is part of me that finds comfort in her constant memory, even though it took me a long time to be able to move on from the raw pain of it during the first couple of years.
I'm so sorry that you are going through this. There are no words that can make things better, all we can do is offer ears and friendly hands. Sometimes, the most helpful thing is knowing you aren't alone. That your pain is understood.
While your grief is still unique to you since no one had the same relationship with your mother that you had, there are others who also feel the grief of losing those that are at the very core of their existence.
My most deepest condolences. I hope you find peace and always know that you are never alone.
