SameForNever

Too good to miss @SameForNever, so funny ,link is down ↓

This is an event that actually happened to me some time ago. I just wanted to share what I found while going through some old story drafts. I also have no idea if I’ve already posted this here somewhere but here you go anyway!
          
          I was just about to open the door and enter my house when I heard it. The sound of a single, solemn church bell. It rang slow, and alone. The cold winter air blew through my loose clothes and short hair. It pricked at my skin, but it was nothing like the eerie chill that flowed through me at the sound of that bell. It was almost like I was drawn to it in a way, but I was so used to hearing a beautiful series of bells interweaving into a familiar song that it was strange to hear the solemn bell. A single tear stuck to my cheek as I looked as far as I could over the housetops staring in the direction of one of the many churches in this small town. 
          
          I had no idea why that tear had fallen from my eye, single, and alone. I hadn’t even noticed it until the next gust of wind hit the trail the tear had made. 
          
          Suddenly, a torrent of tears made their way down my face as something inside me broke. Still, to this day, I wonder what I had lost. I knew it was something, or someone, that was precious to me, but I have no idea what, or who, it was. It felt like an essential part of my very soul was ripped away as the single, solemn bell finally ended its sad and lonely song.

I feel like it’s been forever since I’ve been on here. Just decided I wanted to read something different and had the impulse to look at my own page.
          A Demon’s Angel has gotten another thousand views since I’ve been here last, but what baffles me is that it’s #2 in nashidragneel. 
          How? 
          Why? 
          It’s not even that good tho?
          Maybe I’ll look into rewriting it a bit, I feel like certain parts just drag on or are too dialog heavy. I still have all the drafts for the first and second books in the series so maybe I’ll actually get around to posting them. I can’t guarantee anything as my schedule has been chaotic and motivation to do much of anything has been severely lacking, but I think I’m going to give it another shot. I don’t even know if anyone reads these anymore but I think I’ll do it for myself. I feel like I need to prove to myself that I am at least a decent author.
          I've missed writing, I genuinely hope I can start getting back into my favorite hobby.

So, I’m sitting at my desk, ignoring my school work and writing a story instead. I’m listening to my “Randoms” Spotify playlist (I call it randoms bc it’s just a bunch of random songs I like in the same playlist) and out of nowhere the Pink Panther theme starts playing  
          I love that dumb playlist
          
          There’s 12 hours and 34 minutes worth of music in that playlist so it gets pretty random. 
          
          If anyone wants to look at my strange music selection or even listen to it, here’s the link
          
          https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5MyIQJXkqPFEZs64dVHVpB?si=74rYKMUXSE2TN3PNREpqdw

I’m going to be writing again!
          
          I’m planning on writing some original stories and also continuing my A Demon’s Angel series. 
          
          I’ve also decided to start a “memories” book where I’ll post about funny or interesting moments in my life (with some details changed for privacy reasons for myself and those involved.)
          
          I’m just hoping everyone will enjoy what I plan to write!

I feel like I haven’t done anything in ages! I’m thinking about going through A Demon’s Angel and making the story a bit more coherent, but my memory of Fairy Tail has faded and I don’t want to do anything until I’ve reread or rewatched the series. 
          
          On another note: physical therapy, although necessary, sucks. I messed up my wrist back in December and it seems that I couldn’t go very long without re-injuring  it so now I’m going through physical therapy to help get my strength back and hopefully get it so it isn’t as painful to type. 
          
          Also, online school sucks. I can’t seem to get myself to stay focused and I can’t find the ambition to do my homework. It really sucks because I’m starting to feel so... what’s the word? Bored? Nah, it’s almost worse then that. I don’t remember the word for it, but it’s like you do the exact same things every day, and although you know it’s a different day and there might be one or two things that are different, it’s still hard to differentiate between the different days of the week. It’s like I’m in a mind numbing routine that I can’t break myself out of. 
          
          Writers block sucks when you don’t want to do anything else but your mind comes up empty.

I hate the fact that I forgot what it was like to write, it’s been so long since I’ve gotten any inspiration to write ANYTHING and it feels amazing to do it again. 
          
          Being able to get lost in a sea of words that allows you to shape and mold things into what you want is definitely a feeling that I’ve missed. This is why I love just writing, being able to write with no boundaries, just what comes to mind, it’s so damn relaxing. 
          
          I’ve realized that when I think of a place or an item to write about, I can see every single detail that would stand out, feel the grooves in the wood as I brush my fingers along the walls, feel the plush carpet beneath my feet as I breathe in the beautiful fresh air that smells like pine and a campfire. It’s like I can feel the cool ceramic as I wrap my fingers around the white mug filled with hot cocoa, the smell of the sweet chocolate filling my nose as the heat warms my cold hands. It’s like I can see the way the snow glistens on the treetops outside my window, feel the pain from sitting on a hard harsh wooden chair for long hours. I can feel the way an old page in a book feels as I get ready to turn it over, the mere smell making me smile. It’s comforting and familiar but at the same time, strange and uncomfortable. I always find it hard to describe when I write because I can see everything in such vivid detail, I actually forget to write it most of the time.
          
          Anyways, I hope everyone has a good day/night!

I just realized that I haven’t hugged anyone in a year. It’s depressing, isn’t it?

1) HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
          
          
          
          
          2) it’s like 3 am and I haven’t gotten any sleep for the past 24 - 48 hrs :) so I’m sleep deprived! Yay!
          
          
          
          
          3) I just realized that if I add one more story to my library, I will have 900 stories just sitting there, waiting to be read/continued XD
          
          
          
          
          4) I’m really sorry for the recent inactivity, I’m trying my best to get the sequel done but I’m also trying to not stress out during the holidays. 
          
          
          
          
          5) I really need a break from my family.
          
          
          
          
          6) For the first time in a VERY long time, I actually want to go back to school physically. I hate being online rn.
          
          
          
          
          I miss my peeps.
          
          
          
          
          7) I never thought that I would see the day that I would say that I missed human interaction outside of my house. Yet here I sit, nothing but a dimly lit phone illuminating my face and a small portion of my surroundings as I try to type. 
          
          
          
          
          8) I just might go crazy
          
          
          
          
          9) Have a great day/night!
          
          
          
          
          10) Stay safe! I hope everyone had a happy holiday season!

Sometimes I wonder how I went from a fun little idea I got when reading a NaLu one-shot, to a two book series. Honestly, I am planning to stop the series at two books unless I somehow come up with an insane plan and end up making a third book or even another that ties into the ADA (A Demon's Angel) world.