Hey guys: TR:DL: got my job back, got sick for a week, unmotivated, been struggling to write, working on YouTube videos hasn’t been going easy. Gonna try to do more prep so I’m ready, but I’ll see what I can post before Sunday.
The long version: So I did get my job back but I marked guilty despite all the evidence to the contrary, and for mid-winter break, I got so sick I was coughing, couldn’t breathe properly, couldn’t even write properly, could barely record more than one video, and then I couldn’t sleep properly for certain days. I also just have been disoriented just a lot mentally and I haven’t had the mental strength to go back to work so I can catch up with everything cuz I just want the strength to be myself again and feel like I’m taking control of my life again, but I just need a bit more time.