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Ya’ll..
I don’t know what to do, slowly I’m starting to loose my motivation to write, I’m struggling to come up with something or anything.
It’s hard to even write or draw.
Every time I see my stories, I know I can do better but I’m writing them like complete shit.
I’m getting tired and it’s hard to write or draw with this thought in mind that tells me “this is childish now, you should focus on making money more than this”
People are trying to make the art I enjoy drawing as a past time into something that I could use to make money.
I want to publish a book, but I’m avoiding writing it or planning it like it’s a plague…
I’m tired, I want to write and draw, I wanna regain the joy and excitement that I usually have when I do, but it’s harder to do so. If music helped me with motivation for writing or drawing it’s not working anymore.
I imagine scenarios of what I want to happen in the books as the music video, but I just can’t write it. I don’t feel that motivation to even pick up a pencil or open my computer to write even a word.
If this is growing up from my “childish mind” then it fucking sucks and I want to scream and cry, but I know people would tell me “it’s fine, you’ll grow out of it” or “it’ll be fine” but it’s not when something I’ve been doing for majority of my life is fading and I can’t do it no more.
I force myself to write and draw to keep the skill, but I don’t find the meaning anymore. I can’t find the reason to keep going with my artist side.
I know it might be childish, but it’s hard and I’m struggling to keep going with this.
I desire some advice if anyone of my readers and friends know anything.
I thank you for reading and remaining with me all these years it feels.
I love you all more than anything.