SWEETKYG

Hey long time no talk my guys. 
          
          Guess who’s two days from graduating? (Technically... my classes end tomorrow)
          
          Yes. Me. The author who never updates regularly. 
          
          Which means that I will hopefully kick my butt into gear and try to write more of In My Arms!! 
          
          I am actively writing Ateez fics on ao3, my user is SWEETS1GHS if you wanna check that out. 
          
          Anyway just wanted to pop in and say that yes I’m alive, sorry for not being active since like February haha

Me: has no motivation to write the next chapter of my books
          
          Also me: writes a pole dancing scene 
          
          
          

Here’s something my body wouldn’t stop freaking out over until I wrote it after I finished watching Children Of The Sea
          
          ....
          He was a beautiful song, a tidal wave of twists and turns that flowed so eloquently together that it hurt to think about. 
          
          He was here and there but never fully there. Existing in the moment as if another wouldn’t come. 
          
          When he smiled, the sun shifted to form a halo around his head as his hair fluttered around him. He was the essence of beauty. But beauty was never meant to last. 
          
          A fever dream is what it felt like, a rush of memories climbing over one another trying to have the last impression. 
          
          But all I can remember is that smile on the beach as he slipped through my fingers with the sun setting behind his eyes. 

Honestly I don’t know if I’ll be able to continue writing on here... I have no motivation left but at the same time I feel like y’all deserve for me to end In My Arms atleast. 
          
          I’m going to take a proper writing hiatus and brainstorm ideas on how to come to a decent ending and hopefully write up the chapters until I get to said ending. Let’s hope this hiatus isn’t too long. 
          
          I’m really sorry guys. 

I think I might delete Sense.
          
          It’s romanticizing murder and psychopathy. Which really isn’t okay. 

BTW I POSTED MY OT8 ATEEZ POLY VAMPIRE AU ON AO3 UNDER THE NAME ‘OUR UTOPIA’ (my ao3 name is also SWEETKYG) 

Tbh I want to abandon In My Arms because I keep
          digging myself into a hole with that book. I had a plot but I didn’t like it so I decided to just wing it but obviously that’s not working. I’m more invested in writing cute poly Ateez AU’s and just want to write my vampire AU. 
          
          But the thought of leaving you guys hanging hurts me even though most of my readers gave up on me lol. I still remember getting excited to post but watching the comments trickle down as people got bored of waiting on me to update. My stories aren’t good enough to hook people into staying long enough for my slow updates. 
          
          I still remember when I only had Sense and Fanboy. I remember seeing the familiar usernames on every chapter. And then I branched out and those people slowly left and new people came in. Then I started Ateez books and lost quite a few of you and I’m sorry for not pushing out more Jingyeom content, but it’s hard to find inspiration especially now that the group has taken a break to establish themselves in their new companies. 
          
          I’ve recently started reading on AO3 and honestly want to post on there but I don’t think I write well enough haha. This post is a huge ramble but I feel like I should update my thoughts to the few people who care here. Because you guys are amazing and I’m glad to interact with all of you :). 
          
          
          Anyway this really is just an apology for In My Arms because I will hopefully finish it, soon? Nope. But I’m not going to abandon it. I’m going to try and find inspiration and figure out how to end it in a way I like. 
          
          Anyway for those of you who’ve gotten this far, I appreciate you so much <3. Thank you for sticking with me as long as you have, even if it’s only been a few months or you’ve been here since Fanboy. 

Okay but what if mafia AU x flower shop AU 
          
          Mafia uses Flower shop storefront right? And flower shop is like where they move the cartel. But they can call their drugs and stuff parcels because of the use of the word parcel can be used for flowers??? 
          
          Idk if that makes sense but I want to write it because I’m reading a mafia AU rn and I miss writing fight scenes like Sense. 

I literally have 4 chapters of my ot8 Ateez fic. Y’all this is the most I’ve written in MONTHS 

I am THIS CLOSE to writing a poly/slight ot8 Ateez fic