🧠 𝐊𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐄

@SorcererSupreme- 
              *).   please get carried away i adore it 

“ But we never got that choice , did we ? You didn’t . I didn’t . Still , if I had one quiet day … one / truly / ordinary moment … I think I’d spend it like this. Not with a spellbook . Not with fate breathing down our necks . Just … up here. With you “ he finally looks towards the other . There’s something raw in his eyes , a tiredness that goes deeper than sleepless nights or shattered bones he gives her a small smile before looking back at the city .
            
            “ I used to believe that being chosen meant something . That we were supposed to do this .  But maybe … maybe it just means we were the ones who didn’t run fast enough “ he places his hand down only a few inches from Kirstene , not quite letting them touch but close enough that if she wanted to she could “ you don’t have to say anything , “he adds , voice quiet . “I know you’ve lost more than most. I just needed to say it out loud. To someone who’d understand “ the silence returns — not heavy , not empty . Just … still .
            
            (2/2)
            
            ;// Spam 2 ( out of ) 2 <3 I apologise for this being late also :3

@vltrumitpwr .      see ,  i am not most people.   perhaps i lack some common sense ,  but i say im just a gambling woman who just doesn't put money on the line. 

most  people  would  be  backing  away  by  now.

@vltrumitpwr    .    no ,  i think i am in  *just*  the right place. 

@SorcererSupreme- .      " i do have a knack for being where i don't belong "  the statement was true.  she often pushed things beyond the point of reasonableness.  with that came a woman that was aware of the slightest details.  it had made her good at her job ,  and a nuisance to many people.  with her sorrow her skills had not been in use ;  she had ignored almost everyone in pursuit of trying to right a wrong.  yet ,  somehow ,  in this moment her old habits kicked in.  a sliver of the old kirstene was shining through.  
            
            " i am no fool.  i am quite experienced in deflecting with knowledge. this is not to solve my pain or bring me peace.  this is for the world ,  for my family.  i have learned nothing will bring me peace "  vulnerability was not a normal occurrence for the stark.  she usually fronted with arrogance or sarcasm.  perhaps tony's d*ath had made her soft ,  or maybe she was too tired to maintain the walls. 
            
            her lips flared at the comment of her legacy.  even in her depression her legacy was a touchy subject.  her whole life she had strived to create a meaning to her name outside of the male shadow.  the woman rolled her eyes at his speech.  " he didn't give a d*mn about me " she retorted.  that wasn't the truth ,  and kirstene was aware ,  but the word  ' legacy '  was a trigger she would never work through.    the woman's eyes drifted back to the book.  her mind had once been so set ,  and now she found herself hesitating.  " i don't have any power.  im a normal human ,  even if i have fought my whole life to prove otherwise.  i have given this world advancements and safety ,  and yet none of it mattered.  do not patronize me.  "   even though her words sounded certain ,  her eyes showed different.  a glimmer of hope resonated in her crystal blue orbs.  could she finally have the legacy she so desperately wanted? 

“ You say your legacy doesn’t matter. That it never has. But that’s not truth. You say you have nothing left, but you’re still here. Breathing. Thinking. Choosing. That means you still have power, and how you wield it matters. And your brother… I understand loyalty. I understand loving someone so deeply that you’d bend the natural order just to see them again. But ask yourself this: if the roles were reversed, what would he want for you ? Would he want your mind haunted , your soul consumed , just so he could draw another breath ? “ finally moving his hand he used it to open the book again , this time to the page she was looking for knowing there was no use in fighting her if she truly desired to bring him back and face the consequences he’d let her choose.
            
            “ I am not here to lecture you. Nor will I stop you—because no one could’ve stopped me when I stood where you stand now. But let me offer you this: a place at Kamar-Taj. A chance to learn not just how to gather power, but how to bear it. We don’t teach control for the sake of restraint—we teach it so that power doesn’t consume those who hold it. You have more to give this world than vengeance. More than grief. Let me help you see that. If not for your sake, then for the brother you loved so fiercely. Don’t become a ghost in pursuit of ghosts. Live. Choose differently than I did “ stepping away he gave her one last look before turning his back to her .
            
            (2/2)

. ݁ ˖【 @STXRKISMS 】. ݁ ˖
            
            “ harsh ? I think it seems quite reasonable for someone breaking into a place that they know they’re not supposed to be in “ Stephen spoke as he watched her carefully knowing this wasn’t a fight he was going to win … but he’d try. Brown hues holding an emotion that was uncommon for him … sorrow … though as quickly as it came it was gone returning once again to his normal features , that if you looked closely they had become more soft .
            
            “ believe me when I say I understand the hunger. The desire to know more, to control the chaos, to wrestle meaning from the from the silence the universe so often offers . But you speak with a tone I know all too well … grief “ looking down at the book his hand was still on he let a small sigh escape parted lips , from their few encounters over the past he knew her like a page in one of the many books in the library … even if he didn’t admit it they were similar in ways .
            
            “ knowledge is not a shield from pain - it’s a mirror. You think bringing him back will bring you peace. It won’t. You’ll open one door only to find a thousand more with heavier locks. I’ve watched entire timelines fracture under the weight of “ I just want one more moment . “ / I’ve / made those choices. And I’ve paid for them “ looking away he was silent for a moment clearly lost in thought before he shook his head.
            
            (1/2)

i only mind the business that pays me.   who are you?

@crimscns .       hmm.  then you must not be paying attention.  

⋆   OMG MEEEEEEE

@STXRKISMS   /     jumps up & down rapidly  ..  mememe

/ I would do either 

;        that's fair , i've seen a few folk change over to there

@THEAUSTR1AN
               *).   haha barely. im most active on discord 

;      oml you're alive 
            watty is alive , folk are just way more selective 

ೃ—.  @hulkouts 
                  even the brilliant struggle.   hmm,  i suppose i wouldn't mind some food. 

;        ah , sorry i didn't see this 'til now , but i do 
            i'm on moistkiwi , if you still want to chat 

@BU11SEYE 
              *).   do you have discord by chance?  i am quite literally never on here - 

;        ◎ benjamin poindexter : he / it
            
            at the last part , a scoff escaped before benjamin had the mind to stop it , and bitterness soured his expression once more ; though not aimed at the woman this time around . 
            ' you've made no real proposition , so far this all sounds one–sided . . .  and i don't care for the public to know anything , i know how disorders are received , anything that can't be fixed with medications are inconvenient . 
            i'd prefer to be known as the psychopathic monster than some pitiful excuse of a man who can't control himself . ' 

ೃ.—   @onebatchtwo )
                   sadly ,  i am not.   you are objectively handsome ,   and these events are more political than anything.   i need arm candy.   you are the objective choice.  

ೃ—  @onebatchtwo ) 
                 there is more to alcohol than liquid courage mister castle.  tell me,  have you ever tasted a bottle of aged sassicaia wine from tuscany?  a bottle is about 500 dollars.  beautiful.  the smell is also quite specific.  any aristocrat will recognize it in a moment.  i enjoy my liquor mister castle ,  and certain smells can get you quite far.  

clearly ,  but  you’re  not  gonna  find  it  at  the  bottom  a’  that  bottle .   a  woman  like  you  still  needs  liquid  courage ?

ೃ— @onebatchtwo )
                i am a determined woman mister castle.   i will get what i want ,  one way or another.