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i might be back

chainsm0ked

hey, still zayda. forgot my password to the other account, oops. but still here and still hoping to hear from you somehow.

chainsm0ked

i’m dying to know what’s new with you. please, please, please come back, just long enough to see these messages. i’d give anything to have one more conversation with you.
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chainsm0ked

i’m kicking myself for not giving you and ezekiel and everyone else i cared about some alternate means of communicating so we could have stayed in contact even after i left this place. but i think i was having a total breakdown over it all. it just wasn’t good for me. being here was like a drug for me. i was so addicted and i was wasting every second staying beside my phone, waiting for the next message to come in. i had to cut it out of my life, cold turkey, and i guess i thought leaving everyone was a necessary part of that. but now i’m so sad because the odds i’ll hear from any of you ever again are so slim and there’s nothing i can do about it. life goes on.
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chainsm0ked

i’ve spent the last few hours listening to music from my emo phase and making jewelry and now i’m just thinking about you. and it’s late and i’m tired but i don’t care. i wish you were here.
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chainsmoked

it’s zayda. if you ever see this, leave a comment on my wall (because i don’t think pm exists anymore on here?) or email me: celestialxbabie @ gmail
          
          but i guess in the case you never see this, i just hope you’re doing well <3 it’s crazy how much time has passed since we last spoke. you were on my mind and i was reminiscing on past conversations so yeah!