Ruthe-is-emo

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          	Hi y’all so uhm, I kinda woke up today feeling nothing? Recently I’ve just hated myself and everyday woken up and felt nothing, sometimes I feel like crying, or I’ll get so frustrated with myself for not being able to di things I genuinely want to commit. Idek what’s wrong with me. I mean most days I can convince myself to act like I’m fine, but some days I just can’t be bothered to care. I’ve been considering scuicide a lot recently, I don’t know why. My life isn’t necessarily bad or anything bad or anything I just wake up feeling shit. I imagine what people Ik irl would say if they knew, my parents, my friends, my skl, everything. My dad in the past has called me a lot of things “ pathetic” “waste of space” “ good for nothing” and he isn’t wrong. I do feel like I am those things. I’ve needed to try and get rid of the pain, I would self harm but I’ve been trying not to, so instead I’ve been reading smut and starving myself. I stopped eating both to lose weight and as it’s really the only thing I have control over anymore, and reading smut isn’t for my own ‘pleasure’ or whatever shit you might think, I genuinely hate reading that shit,it makes me feel gross. I only do it as it makes me feel SOMETHING, y’all can thank the body’s natural instincts for that lol. So uh, apart from that my weeks been fine wby :D

yuckyuck21

@Ruthe-is-emo OMG WHAT IM SO HAPPY OML, i am actually so sorry to hear u gained an ed but i hope you can heal n take care of yourself<33 congrats on going to therapy! but UR NOT EVEN ALLOWED ON  ROBLOX WHAT… ITS LEGOS  erm anyway, tysm Ruth<3 hope u have a good day 2 gal<3
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Ruthe-is-emo

@yuckyuck21  hihi sorry I've been gone, A LOT has happened since then but to make it it short a gained an ED ended up in hospital for a short time and now I'm in family therapy plus regular therapy! I'm on medication now for my deppresion I am alive and well I'm just not allowed wattpad anymore OR ANY social media (not even fucming roblox dude ) so ill only really reply to comments when my friend comes round or my bf and I can uses their phone >< love you too btw, you seem like a kind wonderful person have a lovely day
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yuckyuck21

@Ruthe-is-emo I don’t know you but id literally cry if u committed :( I’ve literally been searching everywhere on ur pfp and shi looking for signs ur atleast alive :(, u dont have to respond to this message hell its even better if u dont since u dont even know me but like idrk what to say  or how to like word my sentences but ur literally awesome sauce gal<3 I literally dont even know you but I litz love u, u seem like such a fun person to be around<333 ig i wanted to mention u can dm me on pinterest or messenger if u want to vent or smthin ik im a stranger and i prob seem like a 40 yr old pervert but i just cant imagine such a fun person like you to be gone :(( ( i wanna mention i uh noticed u from a hbh fanfic and your comments were hilarious I literally would check chapters for ur comments but then i saw ur convs on here and i got worried, ) i uh will drop my usernames and leave, my messenger ( rania de tlete ) Pinterest ( ran1ameow )  as i mentioned u seem like such a fun person be around your hilarious and you have friends worried abt u :(  )
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Ruthe-is-emo

this message may be offensive 
TW: vent
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Hi y’all so uhm, I kinda woke up today feeling nothing? Recently I’ve just hated myself and everyday woken up and felt nothing, sometimes I feel like crying, or I’ll get so frustrated with myself for not being able to di things I genuinely want to commit. Idek what’s wrong with me. I mean most days I can convince myself to act like I’m fine, but some days I just can’t be bothered to care. I’ve been considering scuicide a lot recently, I don’t know why. My life isn’t necessarily bad or anything bad or anything I just wake up feeling shit. I imagine what people Ik irl would say if they knew, my parents, my friends, my skl, everything. My dad in the past has called me a lot of things “ pathetic” “waste of space” “ good for nothing” and he isn’t wrong. I do feel like I am those things. I’ve needed to try and get rid of the pain, I would self harm but I’ve been trying not to, so instead I’ve been reading smut and starving myself. I stopped eating both to lose weight and as it’s really the only thing I have control over anymore, and reading smut isn’t for my own ‘pleasure’ or whatever shit you might think, I genuinely hate reading that shit,it makes me feel gross. I only do it as it makes me feel SOMETHING, y’all can thank the body’s natural instincts for that lol. So uh, apart from that my weeks been fine wby :D

yuckyuck21

@Ruthe-is-emo OMG WHAT IM SO HAPPY OML, i am actually so sorry to hear u gained an ed but i hope you can heal n take care of yourself<33 congrats on going to therapy! but UR NOT EVEN ALLOWED ON  ROBLOX WHAT… ITS LEGOS  erm anyway, tysm Ruth<3 hope u have a good day 2 gal<3
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Ruthe-is-emo

@yuckyuck21  hihi sorry I've been gone, A LOT has happened since then but to make it it short a gained an ED ended up in hospital for a short time and now I'm in family therapy plus regular therapy! I'm on medication now for my deppresion I am alive and well I'm just not allowed wattpad anymore OR ANY social media (not even fucming roblox dude ) so ill only really reply to comments when my friend comes round or my bf and I can uses their phone >< love you too btw, you seem like a kind wonderful person have a lovely day
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yuckyuck21

@Ruthe-is-emo I don’t know you but id literally cry if u committed :( I’ve literally been searching everywhere on ur pfp and shi looking for signs ur atleast alive :(, u dont have to respond to this message hell its even better if u dont since u dont even know me but like idrk what to say  or how to like word my sentences but ur literally awesome sauce gal<3 I literally dont even know you but I litz love u, u seem like such a fun person to be around<333 ig i wanted to mention u can dm me on pinterest or messenger if u want to vent or smthin ik im a stranger and i prob seem like a 40 yr old pervert but i just cant imagine such a fun person like you to be gone :(( ( i wanna mention i uh noticed u from a hbh fanfic and your comments were hilarious I literally would check chapters for ur comments but then i saw ur convs on here and i got worried, ) i uh will drop my usernames and leave, my messenger ( rania de tlete ) Pinterest ( ran1ameow )  as i mentioned u seem like such a fun person be around your hilarious and you have friends worried abt u :(  )
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