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When my Mom says
"Hey, You can talk to me If you want. About anything."
Its just like,
"Oh."
Its just that I wanna tell her that I'm dating a Adorable Girl But its just like,
I know when one day I tell her she's gonna be like,
"Oh, I still love you, No matter what."
But its just I know she's not gonna be happy.
I remember my Brother told me when we were young,
(My family Is religious so yeah)
"Don't worry, When we are In heaven we will live together! Everybody will be there!"
But now I know,
When my Parents leave me, I'm not gonna be able to ever see them again.
Any of my Family Members.
Like I just have Thoughts and Dreams about them leaving me when I'm older.
Yeah I know that's gonna happen soon but still.
I honestly just hate that.
Then probably I'll just be alone.
Just doing shit I promised them I'll never do.
My life will be screwed up and shit.