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I’m such a failure 
          My brother has a good relationship w all my family and he has his future wife 
          
          My sister is the life of the party and even if she’s not the smartest everyone likes her. She’s also so pretty 
          
          My other sister is so fucking good. She’s smart, athletic, everyone likes her. My mom wants me to be like her. She wants me to go to where she goes to school. I can’t tho. My whole life I’ve been second to all my siblings and if I go there I will only be her sister. I cannot be me, I will be her sister. Oh they know me? No they know my sister 
          It’s so fucking horrid 
          My sister after four years is gonna have a masters in international relations 
          Do yk how good that is? 
          My mom got two failures or semi failures and then got this goddess of a child who’s so ficking good at everything 
          AND THEN THERES ME 
          
          IM ANNOYING 
          KM WEIRD
          I CANNOT EVER FUCKING BE WHAT SHE WANTS ME TO BE 
          IM GAY
          I DO SH 
          I GO TO THERAPY 
          MY GRADES ARENT GOOD ENOUGH 
          IM DEPRESSED
          
          Oh and also everything’s my fault and my mom can’t even bother to show up to anything of mine 
          She’ll skip trips to go to my sisters choir concert or my brothers orchestra concert 
          She’ll go to my sisters accemptance to the national honors society 
          But the minute I have a concert 
          A musical 
          A show 
          She’s not there
          I search the crowd and she’s nkt there 
          I try so hard to separate myself from everyone to be my own person 
          But when she sees that person she’s upset and hates me 
          
          And my little brother? Oh yeah anything he does wrong is bc he’s dyslexic and has adhd
          I HAVE ADHD TOO
          BUT WHEN I DO SMT WRONG JTS BC IM WEIRD NOT BC IM NKT OKAU 
          
          I hate my family 
          I’m privileged but I’m so fickimg mistreated  
          I HAVE MONEY BUT I DONT HAVE LOVE

IM LOWK SUCH A GOOD PERSON

I’m sorry 
          I’m not good enough 
          Idk if I ever will be 
          I’m sorry 
          I was just tryinr my best 
          But Ik my best isn’t ever enough

Our height difference goes crazy

Wake up at 7am 
          Go to airport 
          Go on plane 
          Get off plane 
          Go to hotel
          Go to room 
          Go to magic kingdom 
          Have fun 
          Go to parade 
          Go back to hotel 
          Shower 
          Go on phone
          Cry 
          Sister got accepted into good college
          YIPPE 
          And that’s what u missed on GLEE

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VIVI!!!!

Go read my friend max’s ( @9310464m ) fic. Seriously underrated (cough I haven’t started it yet.) 
          It’s called magics secret 
          It’s gay which is automatically good 
          Anyways 
          Love you guys

I CONVINCED MY MOM TO CONSIDET GETTING BOSTON GRACIE TICKETS FOR ME AND MY BSFS

6 months seems like a long time 
          Until that’s the time I have to make a huge decision of my life that could ruin it or make it better except idk which one will do it