Tori

Keep an eye out for a new story coming 
          
          (especially if you are a part of a certain mcyt fandom)

Thank you for following me 

Yo my peeps. So uh... a lotta shit has happened since the last time I was in here, which was about... 8? Months ago?? Yeah, that sounds about right.  Wow, time really flies. Uh. Yeah. Wow, I can’t believe I Just disappeared like that. And it was kinda out of nowhere. I was here, and then- not. So yeah, I kinda took a reaaaaaaly long break for my mental health as, like I said, a lot of shit happened. I had my first relationship, that ended badly, had my second relationship, that didn’t end as bad as the first but still sucked, and am now happily in my 3rd!! Also, to all of you who were there for me during all of my mental crises, I’m happy to announce that I am seeing someone and I am getting better!! I’m about to go on medication and so sooner or later, I’ll truly be ok. Thank you for all the love and support you guys have given me, I couldn’t have made it this far without it! You guys set me in the track to recovery and I’m getting so much better! I love you all so much!! Also, if you want to know more about what happened during the months I’ve been gone, just let me know, and I’ll be more than happy to share!! Alright guys, keep yourselves safe, and have a wonderful almost Christmas!! ❤️❤️❤️

Hello fellow pusheen lover

Is anyone else getting the glitch where you go down, like, 10 followers or something? Yesterday, I had 97 or 98 and now I have 88. Do people just not like me or something? I'm legit really confused.

Help my area is under a tornado warning and I'm really nervous. I don't know what to do! And I'm sick too, so this is really not great.
          
          What a lovely way to spend a Sunday afternoon

Ugh I think it was a mistake to go to the movies because all yesterday and today, I was sick. My nose was running, my throat felt like it was on fire, and I was coughing and sneezing every other second. And now I have a headache. I couldn't do anything all do long. I couldn't even eat! I wasn't hungry. Or thirsty. Or anything. Ugh and today my head feels like it's going to explode...
          
          RIP QuartzUndTawny, 2016-2019. Death from sickness causing her head to explode.

YOOO I JUST WATCHED FIVE FEET APART LAST NIGHT IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD I HAVE NO WORDS! IT MADE ME ALMOST CRY (I hardly ever cry during movies) AND I GOT VERY TEARY EYED IN MANY PARTS. THE MOVIE JUST RIPPED MY HEART OUT, STOMPED ON IT, AND THREW IT IN THE TRASHCAN.
          
          What I mean by all of that is, go watch it. It's great. *Crawls into a corner and cries*

Update:
          
          You know that girl I was talking about earlier? Yeah. She likes someone.
          
          Someone who's not me.
          
          I found out from my friends who went to our school dance a couple of weeks ago. She and another guy were holding hands and dancing. They like each other and are dating now.
          
          Sometimes I wonder why it's always me who's left alone. Everyone who I love just leaves. I guess I'm destined to be lonely for life, huh?
          
          Honestly, I'm not that surprised. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up because nothing good ever happens when I do that.
          
          I should probably be used to it by now, but I'm not. It just hurts more and more. But I just bottle it up inside and pretend that I'm fine. Like what I've had to do my whole life. 
          
          I keep making the same mistake of trusting people over and over again. I keep opening my heart up to people and having it ripped out. I can't take it anymore. I can't deal with the pain.
          
          So from now on, I refuse to let anyone get close to me. I refuse to be hurt again. The walls I have in my mind are ten times bigger than before and no one will get through them. I won't allow it. 
          
          I can't allow it. I'm done being hurt.

Hey, how you doing? Well I'm doing just fine. I lied, I'm dying inside.