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I want to die. What's the point of being here

To anyone who found this, I think I'm in the brink of death.
          
          So like something happened to me and I need to take shots abt it... Idk whether I'll die or not but erm...
          
          I'll be offline on my main account (which prob aren't familiar with) and if any of you wonders 
          
          “Hey where the hell did they go?”
          
          “Im in the road to hell.”
          
          Okay but I'm in a serious situation rn.
          
          Idk if I should announce this on my main account knowing it's kind of a serious topic to discuss.

Shitting myself rn. Imagine being ur lowest point and parents still pressure u tho its finally school break. I dont want to promote, I dont want to play competitions anymore Im so tired. Everything is so loud and I still have to work. I cant vent to anyone because people dont fvcking listen and my only comforter isnt here. Please, can I just quit? Im so so close to breaking and yet u just think Im lazy. Im not lazy Im just burnt out. I rlly want to give up so much. It rlly pains when nobody is just there to understand. I cant get enough please, I cannot handle it. Im pleading Im begging and yet my voice isnt loud enough to hear. Everything is so loud in my ears yet u dont have ears to hear my silent cries? I bottle up my feelings all because once I broke down ull just think Im an attention seeker. I cant handle this. I cant handle anymore of ur expectations. I dont know what to do anymore and Ive been loosing myself. I dont have energy anymore, I dont have motivation, I dont have something to help me.

Escaping reality is really difficult. Because reality is always there, you can't really escape it forever, can you? Even if the worst comes you can't escape it. Problems will just escalate more and life will just mean nothing as everything here in the reality is something that triggers us. Something that we fear all of the time.

Life's hopeless

The therapist friend but never the one who gets therapy 

I hate this world. It's full of toxicity.