Howdy, everybody. I decided to put my 'X Readers' a little bit on hold for personal reasons. Thank you for understanding. If you'd like to know why, keep reading...
Due to me being born a pisces I'm automatically prone to be imaginative, inventive and to be in a constant dreamy state. I can make a story about anything. I can draw character beautifully and have a whole idea of what I'm doing with it. If you take notice all of these things are in my head or linked to my pure imagination. Since forever my imagination and constant daydreams are what have been keeping me Sane. Without them I don't know where I'd be because everytime I snap out of it and enter 'the real world' again I hate it. I hate everything about it. And I hate everything about me. Because I have this constant fairytale in my head and have a picture in my head and that picture is my life and I expect it to be exactly like that. My hard work means nothing to people. My ideas mean nothing to people. And I mean nothing to people. It's to snap back into reality and stay in reality because these fanfictions are probably the reason why I find it so hard to interact with real people and relate to real people and make real people laugh and make real people actually enjoy my presence and notice when I'm missing. I have none of that in real life. So I will stay away from wattpad writing and reading because it reminds me how I'm so alone in the world to where god isnt even on my side...
(and plz dont Msg me about how he Is and how he loves all his children because I've been fed that so many times I'm sick of it, because no results have came to me by being a good person and a good Christian)
Thank you for reading and I'm not suicidal, I'm just going through a phase in life where i feel sorry for myself.