PhoenixFirebird19

Even the slightest sinch of seriousness whether it be anger, sadness, or tension towards me or around me can trigger a fight or flight response in me which just resulted in me being quiet, scared, or generally upset. I'm either on the verge of mentally ill or my brain never fully matured. It explains a little of why I just distance myself from others so much. I don't RP as much anymore, and I don't socialize as much anymore. At this point, I'm not sure what to do anymore besides trying to live life until I finally can't keep my thoughts or emotions bottled up. I've become more self aware of what goes on or what I do, how low I am, how I regret of not doing better. All I can do is try to keep going, especially as I'm typing this, slowly feeling better again. I'll probably not be online again for a long while as the process of moving to a new location might happen for my family and I very soon, if we can find a place. I've completely forgot about making a new chapter for my story too, but at this point, I won't bother trying to. I'll try to be ok, perhaps try cutting off weight and other unhealthy habits. If there are others who feel depressed in the world, it's understandable. We just keep going, as well as needing that reminder that we do matter to someone out there.

GachaLifeGalaxy5

@PhoenixFirebird19 
          	  
          	  All that is very understandable.
          	  
          	  I do get what you mean by those thing... I am one of those people that in a way think differently on emotion of self-aware but also as autistic that time that my mind, body, emotion & other thing that affect me from how I react when time that I wouldn't think it would affect me from being so sudden would hurt me & trying to keep myself in control if it to the point that is too much for me even from staying strong of doing my content for my Followers, I feel that it would be need to let many know so thing would calm down. 
          	  
          	  Believe me, I did have tough start on moment during the 1st 3 Months of 2024 & did affect me but still hold it together & sort thing out in either better or would happen again & the way it affect me can... Hurt me & can be hard to keep myself in control. 
          	  
          	  It NEVER easy for many out there but in the end we're still Human & time their isn't such thing as a perfect life & as you say at the end, "We just keep going, as well as needing that reminder that we do matter to someone out there." & that couldn't be anymore TRUE then it is & many of us have Regret. 
          	  
          	  Do what you think it BEST my friend & NO worry about any new chapter. It better to have a calm mind & recover then to find time on holding back the new chapter for this long. That SHOULDN'T be a thing to worry after what you & your family are going through.
          	  
          	  Don't try, just do your best & take ALL the time you need for your recover no matter how long it take even if it to try cutting off weight & other unhealthy habits.
          	  
          	  Stay strong PhoenixFirebird19 & I wish you the best of your recover & much brighter future.
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leeman224

@PhoenixFirebird19 just keep pushing forward my friend
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Nickolui

Phoenix . I know you are with broken spirit. But "everything that try break our spirit make it powerful and and hard". THE REAL PHOENIX WILL NEVER BREAK AND LOSE THE FIRE INSIDE. So  be with strong spirit and mind. I believe in you.

leeman224

Hey phoenix i know your probably not going to see this so I'll keep it short i hope you are okay my friend but ever since the incident with eric everything gone down hill with you guys gene gone pedo smesh disappeared and eric barely writes anymore but dispite all that we all have lives outside of Wattpad so i hope you are living it in the best way possible if not you'll get through it like how the turtle wins a race with the rabbit it never gives up anyways see ya bro