PIMPCESSA-

I have no one to turn to
          	Im drowing under my own words

PIMPCESSA-

su·i·cid·al
          
          ˌso͞oəˈsīdl/
          
          adjective
          
          deeply unhappy or depressed and likely to commit suicide.
          
          "far from being suicidal, he was clearly enjoying life"
          
          relating to or likely to lead to suicide.
          
          "I began to take her suicidal tendencies seriously"
          
          likely to have a disastrously damaging effect on oneself or one's interests.
          
          "a suicidal career move"