Nik

I am a 13 year old gay boy, I came out to my parents about 2 months ago (just before Christmas 2020). I was adopted by them when I turned 7, they were my 5th foster home. 

I have a really cool younger brother (he is my mom and dad's birth son). He is 5 years younger than me, I'm afraid to say this but I think he is the first person I ever loved and probably the only person I have ever loved ( and not the sick way like sex )

 We live on a horse farm, stable and train horses for people. I compete in several equestrian events including barrel racing. I also train younger kids how to ride and take care of their horses.  

I get pretty emotional and freaked at times, but most especially if I think someone is going to hurt my lb. I got suspended from school for a day in August because 2 boys tried to take his lunch money from him. 

I really hate bullies unless they are trying to pick on me. I promised my dad I would only hit someone after they hit me or my little brother first. My dad is real cool. He was former military and he helps me practice my Sambo and also teaches me hand to hand combat skills.  

I have 3 horses, 2 dogs but no boyfriend. I think of how nice it would be a lot of times to have a person that I could trust and tell every secret and how I got every scar on me, but I'm not sure if I will every find such a person.

I had a story posted on here and took it down, I didn't think it was perfect. I am told all the time by my parents, therapist, and the stable mgr. that I am perfect and normal and stuff like that but have a real hard time believing them.

 I also play soccer, I was striker and team captain last year. 

I have been really depressed the last few weeks because I thought I was really in love with a boy and well he hardly wants to talk to me anymore.

Hugs to everyone and please don't pick on people.