Nikki

SPORADIC UPDATE AFTER 2 YEARS
          
          I turn 20 in a couple of months.
          
          I am a first year at University in the US cause it is easier (although nothing has gone as planned)
          
          In 10th grade, I realized I finally had a close-knit friend group, although I didn't gain proper social skills till ending of 11th grade. 
          
          I also am not as introverted as before (I can casually talk to people when I want to), so I made many friends at Uni. 
          
          As far as I can tell, I also am not suffering from crippling depression and anxiety anymore (It'll be a year in about two months) 
          
          I will also go back and delete ALL my comments relating to politics and religion (I am still a Christian; I'd be an absolute fool not to) because my beliefs have changed and improved.
          
          Genuinely looking back, I'd legit smack my younger self in the face for some of the things I believed in and said.
          
          Although I was also incredibly damaged/traumatized (and still am damaged and traumatized, I'm just able to cope with it better and section it for now)
          
          But yeah, from being extremely conservative (but still a feminist, which is honestly a weird combination but also the reason I was able to think about my beliefs and change properly.) to a left-leaning centrist 
          cause tbh you; people are tripping
          
          Honestly, I wish I could apologize to the people I debated with because I get it now.
          
          Trying to have a consistent prayer life now is difficult, but I know it will be so worth it in the end.
          
          I'm also trying to read more, so I may get a kindle.
          
          Life isn't good or perfect right now, but I know that I can at least try my best (with God's grace to handle it now)
          
          I don't know if people care enough to read this announcement, but it's been on my mind, and I would at least like to clarify my conscience.

Hello. I noticed in my notifications that you followed this account. I will be inactive since I made a new one @SaintVassa. So if there was a reason in the follow pertaining to books (of which I don't remember), I'm moving those there. 

Hi guys, I wanted to ask you if you could help me to respond or tag me in any of my previous comments? I want to take them down...or most of them down at least. 
          
          But only the political ones not the religious ones.
          
          Thank you!

Hey dear sorry for bothering you
          Please check out my story pains of amara

Also, there are a lot of things that I said, about e.g. Atheists, muslims or the LGBTQ community that Ilook back on now and realize that I wasn't empathetic or said some stiff that didn't make sense, even about black people and stuff.
          
          My core beliefs are still the same like I know the Bible said that gay relationships are sin and stuff but there are things that I said and think back to now that I'm just like... cringe.
          
          I may just fix it later and straighten it out and stuff but idk

Hello, so I posted a face reveal ‍♀️. Even though I'm not as active and still quite confused about what happened to everyone, (especially Dark Ph0T0N cause I can't find her anywhere) I posted a face reveal.
          
          Why? I have no idea I guess it just seemed right, so yeah

Hi.
          Sorry to intrude on your message board but can you please check out my works. I write chick lit, romance stories if you're interested. It's perfectly okay if you're busy or just not interested. Stay beautiful
          -Thea

This is soooo weird. Coming back to this account. Wattpad has changed a lot more and it's looks quite annoying to use now with the amount of ads for premium. 
          I'm not coming back, I just wanted to establish that. But it has already been established by me not using this account in 2 years anyway. I already posted my socials in a previous post like last year, on this page so do with it what you will.
          
          I am so busy now, and quite a lot had happened since I've left both really good things and really bad things, I'm 18 I August which is where and I'm going to be a senior soon.
          
          I actually have people that I care about I real life which is a huge development for me. I don't know this place seems weird. It looks like the debates and stuff with politics and religion has calmed down and a lot of people also left around the same time I did or their accounts got banned? Like I haven't been able to find people like DarkPH0T0N anywhere? 
          
          I have am having some struggles in my faith and not in like belief and stuff but being consistent in a relationship which is quite hard considering what's going on in my life. 
          
          I have completely stopped debating about politics and religion cause it's not for me, it drains me and I'm tired of it. I even cut off the news as well. My beliefs also have changed? Not changed but like evolved because I still believe somewhat the same things but I'm a lot more empathetic with others who don't believe in the same things I do. But there are things like white people saying the the n-word and stuff that I have taken a complete 180 on my stance like it shouldn't be said. 
          
          I don't even know the purpose of writing this. Though I may start reading again here and would like to reconnect with you guys but the reconnection please be on snapchat, cause that's how I know I'll be consistent in talking.
          
          Bye, for now I guess?
          
          
          Geez I just scrolled I typed a lot of stuff wawu

piece of shit.

racist.