Nerdy Cosmo

Hello my he’s, she’s, and everyone in between!! I am back!!  I have done some thinking. I want to continue to write, you might’ve not known that it was a possibility that I might’ve stopped but I was heavily considering it. I’m going to focus on original stories but I will continue to write fanfic. I want to use Wattpad as a creative outlet for one specific original story I have in mind. I would like to limit my time on Wattpad seeing as I became somewhat dependent on it. I really enjoyed interacting with everyone in the platform so I might focus on that aspect more than writing. I will try to come out with a schedule soon. Thank you all for being patient, and hello to my new followers. I need some sleep now because it is currently technically morning and I still haven’t slept. Have a great next 24 hours. 

BOOP!!
          
          You have been booped, boop 10 other people (you don’t have to lol)

Hello my lovely stars!! It’s been quite a while, I probably should’ve warned everyone but I took a break from Wattpad. I didn’t want to tell anyone because I didn’t know how long of a break I would take or if I would even want to come back. Tbh I’m still hesitant but I realized I made some online friends *cough* Seth *cough* and didn’t want them thinking I had died. I didn’t really want to come back because I think my whole mcyt shipping thing was a phase. It’s kinda hard to return to an account made specifically for mcyt shipping purposes. There are a lot of things I wanted to say but rn I’m not remembering them rn. I’ll updat you guys later when I remember them. Thank you, I can tell I missed a lot because I had hundreds of notifications. Have a wonderful day/night. 

So, Inet knows this but you probably also have noticed. I’m a HUGE procrastinator. I didn’t realize how bad this could get. I’ve started procrastinating and putting off doing things I enjoy. I DIDNT KNOW THAT WAS EVEN POSSIBLE IRVDUDGSUWLOQAYHVGH-
          
          …send help…please…

Should I try writing a TOH fanfic, I’m afraid I’d butcher the series. If I were to do one it would mainly take place in the demon realm, prob be about them fixing the boiling isles. No big adventures just adapting to their new day to day life. (P. S. I’m the worlds biggest huntlow shipper) 

Who here watches Gravity Falls?? (Aside from Inet)

I have a fault. Shocker, I’m not perfect. You know how some people get fictional crushes? Well I don’t. I get fictional envy. There’s a story or book that I enjoy the concept and environment of. Then I see a bit of myself in one of the characters. Then whenever I see that character I get super happy. I get butterflies and straight up uncontrollable joy. I become obsessed. I want to become that character. I don’t try to become them. In fact I try my hardest to resist it. I don’t often succeed. I slowly become that character and all the pressure is relieved. I no longer get the butterflies whenever I see them. Then I slowly go back to normal until the cycle repeats. 
          
          Characters I’ve done this with(I only remember the ones I’ve done after realizing what I was doing):
          
          Charlie, heartstopper 
          Kris, kmk
          Cinder, Lunar chronicles 
          Tella, Caraval
          
          Now it’s Hunter, The owl house
          
          I started watching it again yesterday and straight up binged it. Idk why but I relate to Hunter. Maybe it’s that lack of freedom, not knowing who you are, the insanity, the crippling self doubt, not being who you’re supposed to be, or something else. But I recognize this feeling and I feel like my personality is about to be taken over by my fan girl obsession with a character I can relate to. Even once it calms down and I return to normal they never really leave. They become a part of my subconscious, a voice in my head. Another perspective. Another thought process. They can be helpful but at the same time not. 
          
          We have: Charlie, gay and depressed, Kris, depressed and uses humor as a coping mechanism, Cinder, self conscious bad ass, Tella, psychotic bad ass, and now Hunter, traumatized bad ass. 
          
          I’m pretty much gay, depressed, and bad ass ig. Although they do help me gain perspective and think through my choices. I don’t notice them all the time but something triggers them and kicks them into action and well, I have an extra set of eyes and ears. And depression, I had enough of that though. 

I just got a new haircut and it looks a bit too masc for my liking and I think it would look good with my blue light glasses but ofc the second I need them they’re nowhere to be found. Hmph. 

Several updates!!
          
          One, got a new Cello!!!!
          
          Two, writers block came into my home uninvited and won’t leave, thinking about calling the police, I’m being held hostage. 
          
          Three, I have three new story ideas but I want to finish writing good at heart first. Either way, let me know which you’d like to see first. 
          
          A.) Something about Cello
          
          B.) Scarian royalty elven element type thing
          
          C.) Over shadowed accomplishments 
          
          I will elaborate on those ideas and give a run down of what they’d be about if you were to choose them and then you guys can vote. 
          
          Anyways ttyl stars;)

Scarian Wattpad users be like: I only ship the personas not the actual people
          
          Jizzie Wattpad users: ha, imagine.