Nancybea317

SUMMER HOLIDAYS!!!
          	
          	what do you guys have planned? My birthday is literally on the 31st!!! I'm so excited!! Yesterday I went  to a pride event and it was so fun! I went with some friends. How is everyones day?

Nancybea317

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Heyy guys! I know I've not been on wattpad for a while. My phone was playing up I'm sorry. But what have I missed? I've not been on in so long so please update me. I'll tell you what's going on with me (sorry if this ends up sounding like a rant)
          
          1st I'm receiving help for my mental health. My mum saw my wrists and now I am going to therapy regularly and I'm super grateful for all the love and support you guys gave me. Honestly it saved me.
          
          2nd (this is the ranting bit I just low-key need to bitch about my crush/bf/idfk anymore) what we do "just friends" don't do that. They don't compliment each other, help each other out or GO ON DATES. RIGHT?! but no apparently he has a gf and I was just a side chick. And before I knew that (this is super triggering so tw for sh) on Monday I was crying I his arms about how I'd relapsed with sh after being clean for 3 weeks and he said "just don't do it, it isn't that hard"...yea...Great guy *cough* fucking bastard *cough*
          
          3rd (also a bit of a rant also tw for sh) my food tech teacher is such a bitch. Today I had food tech (1st period) and our school uniform has a blazer that we HAVE to take off for classes e.g. science, pe and food tech. I had relapsed and fucked my wrist up BAD. I called her over and asked her "Hey is there a chance I could not take my blazer off or maybe go grab a jumper?" I tugged at my sleeve and the message got through. AND THE MF SAID "yknow summers coming and you are going to have to take your blazer off. So maybe think about that before making choices like that. You did that to yourself" and was just really rude about it. Then later when drying dishes she called us and I put the tea towel over my arm so no one would see. And she said IN FRONT OF EVERYONE "Caja! Take the tea towel of your arm right now" Like WTF ma'am?!
          
          Anyway how is everyone? Please catch me up.

Nancybea317

Guess what yep another poem (unedited first draft)
          
          She touched me I never wanted her to but she pushed me against that wall in plain veiw
          I tried to push her off but she wouldn't move
          No matter how loud I cried her lust pushed through 
          No one saw 
          No one cared 
          She didn't care that she was breaking the law
          She wasn't scared
          My friend had left
          It was "only for a few minutes" 
          She had committed theft
          She had pushed the limits 
          But what was I wearing?
          A jumper and some leggings 
          Did you shout loud enough?
          Perhaps not but why does that matter so much?
          Why does she get away scot free?
          As I lay here in never ending pain 
          I may flee
          I lay here in never ending shame 
          As she gets away
          Whilst I stand at bay.

Nancybea317

Also thank you too poetry_lover53 for inspiring me into getting into poetry you're amazing for that so thank you
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Nancybea317

GUYYYYS YOU WON'T BELIEVE THIS  so basically every Sunday we head to my grandparents house with my uncle and occasionally my cousin and every Sunday my uncle has a bitch and whinge about Sam Smith and my uncle is homophobic BUT last week my uncle used they them pronouns after I told him to respect someone's pronouns and HE DID very small thing that I am so happy about