Creecher

I'm gonna do a little vent here quickly about a few things upsetting me about my life, there's been a lot happening. TW for landlords, reproductive rights, transphobia, addiction, and briefly referenced SA/CSA. 
          
          My family got an eviction notice, meaning I have to move out and find my own place in like 1 year max, and I only have $1300 CAD in my savings account in one of the most expensive areas in Canada. 
          
          So I'm also I'm looking at getting a hysterectomy because being fertile makes be extremely dysphoric and paranoid. I have some assault trauma already from when I was a young kid, and the idea of being forcefully impregnated and how it would remove my bodily autonomy and effectively socially and medically transition me is horrifying. 
          Esp cause I'm going to have a non-F on my ID soon. 
          
          I've also had slurs hurled at me lately for wearing my battle jacket. It's a blue denim vest covered in queer and social justice pins/patches. The fact I have stubble and often wear dramatic makeup does the rest. 
          
          I'm also just insecure. The erasure and silencing of trans men and nonbinary people makes me self-conscious. My girlfriend is a binary trans woman, and I always feel like people take her trans identity more seriously than mine, even though I was out of the closet 3 years before her. 
          
          In addition, by girlfriend has chronic pain, so I've been doing a lot physically to assist her on bad pain days. I love supporting her, but it can be so exhausting, especially when I'm dealing with my own stuff, but I don't want to let her down or leave her without any supports. 
          
          I've been able to get a little more progress weening off my weed usage early in the day, but it gets hard around 6 hours after waking up, so I'm still using everyday :( I really can't afford it.
          
          
          I just have no idea how I'm going to manage everything at once. Not to mention my mental disabilities/ illnesses and the obvious political stress...

Guys what if I revived Super Something? 
          What if I made it it's own book on Wattpad? 
          I think there's a lot I can do with what I wrote before

Hey Y'all! I made a DISCORD!!
          
          It was mostly made for my Youtube channel (where I post OC/aesthetic playlists) but I wanted to share it here for y'all to connect with me easier :3

Listening to Moon Walker and thinking... what if Kaldur and Artemis and Conner just vented their frustrations to each other about men in power... they'd each have a unique perspective

Shout out to people who are part of systems, whether it by DID or any other cause. 
          
          Met 2 people who are part of a system this week, and it just reminded me of how much bullshit stigma there is around bodies with multiple personalities. Like everyone compartmentalizes, this is just an extreme example. Alters can be violent because traumatized people can be violent, not because they're split personalities... 
          
          I just cannot believe how many horror movies are made TO THIS DAY demonizing those conditions, and so called disabled-allies will see no problem with painting people with non-average mental states as inherantly dangerous. 
          
          Like get normal about disabled people ffs.

Just letting everyone know there's been another AO3 scrape: 
          
          all content that was on the wesbiste prior to February  (and many other fan art/writing websites) has been scraped by HuggingFace user, so it can be reuploaded elsewhere without the author's knowledge/consent, and even used to train generative AI. 
          
          I'm disgusted and considering making my AO3 stories register-only to prevent future scrapes

"Don't get me started on the fucking True Crime girlies..." Artemis began furiously.
          
          "Oh god, not this again," Robin sighed.
          
          "They're making sexy edits of my dad and sister!" She exploded. "I'll be minding my own business, doomscrolling, and BAM! A naked edit of my sister!"
          
          "To be fair, people make sexy edits of us and the league," Wally pointed out.
          
          "Yeah, but we aren't murderers!"

As someone who joined the YJ fandom in 2018, it continues to blow my mind how whitewashing the fandom was in the early 2010s. 
          
          Go on devientart (or even here on wattpad) and you can find people fancasting Artemis as random blond white girls, and AUs where the sole reason it exists is to replace Kaldur with Garth, not because they like Garth, but because Kaldur's Racially-charged storylines made them (white kids) uncomfortable. You can also find endless examples of people drawing both of them with much lighter skin tones. 
          
          I literally can't condemn this enough cause especially I'm Kaldur's case: his racial identities are important to the plot and character arcs!! 
          
          Idk what I'm trying to get out of posting it, but I just feel like this fandom was SO SO bad to fans of colour back in the day and I really want to try and make it better.

Hey I knew I said I was good on Conner whump for a bit but uh... Something is happening and I need an easy vent fic

folks I've either experienced something profound I was never meant to be aware of, or I'm having a psychotic episode... 
          very scary either way, don't recommend.