mega bitch

It's been quite some time, hasn't it? Well, unfortunately I, like the rash covering some obscene part of your mortal figure, came back. 

TWO UPDATES, TWO DIFFERENT STORIES!!
          
          I'M FEELING PRETTY OKAY TODAY.

Yo, I'm finally feeling alright and I'm going to do something instead of being a lazy piece of shit! I'm in the process of editing and writing another chapter of How to Ruin Your Life, so get ready. Anyway, if you want me to put out another chapter of a certain story, let me know. (This being said, I don't know how long this productive kick is going to last, so I don't know if I'll do the chapter well or not, but I'll try my best.) But yeah. You want me to write another bloody chapter? Yell at me in the comments! Thank you, and have a bloody great day:)

In order for people to progress, we need to really analyze our own actions, motives, and thoughts. We must be entirely aware of our flaws, of all of them, no matter how dark or how self-demeaning this may be. You must realize that you are made up of the faults you were sure did not belong to you. Even once you believe you've uncovered everything, you've only scratched the surface of your flaws. There will be no progress if we only see the faults of the world around us. You cannot find the good things if you refuse to scrape any further than the surface.
          
          But, perhaps, you don't want things to change. You're fine with things the way they are. You're fine with your shallow knowledge of yourself, of the world, and of life itself. Perhaps you will live in ignorance. 
          
          After all, ignorance is bliss.

I was recently "informed" that hedonism is not simply "being an asshole" and has more to do with "figuring out one's own happiness". This is quite the opposite of what hedonism is.
          
          First, we must start with the definition of hedonism; that is, the idea that the point of a human life is to satisfy one's own wants and desires. After a quick glance, it makes complete sense that this would be the shortcut to happiness. Obtaining whatever we want and attempting to satisfy our desires sounds like a surefire method to becoming happy.
          
          Unfortunately, hedonism is anything but connected to happiness. Happiness stems from contentedness, a state that cannot be achieved by a hedonist. Why? Because hedonism is a constant search for something better, for something that satisfies you just a little more. 
          
          An example of this is a pursuit of money. When a person becomes wealthy, they do everything in their power to obtain more. They get trapped in an mental track that tells them, "If only you had a little more." This sounds like something that happens only to the rich, which is what stereotypes would have you believe. Hedonism does not discriminate, though, and will penetrate all classes without hesitation. Everyone wants more, thus they are never HAPPY with what they have. 
          
          Another example is doing good things for others. Most people do them solely because it makes them feel good. This, too, is hedonism, thus it will not make you happy. It may give the giver a false sense of happiness, an illusion of a sated desire, but it only leaves you feeling like you must do more and more of it in order to satisfy yourself. Thus, you are not truly happy on your own.
          
          This philosophy is a dictating part in determining true human nature. People want to serve themselves, make themselves a deity, so they can serve themselves, pleasure themselves, satisfy themselves. Thus, many people will fail to reach a state of happiness.

"Someone loves you. Somebody cares."
          
          Well, don't you see, that's just the problem.

Nothing like drowning your sorrows that are, in turn, drowning you.

all of our core knowledge and beliefs might be wrong, meaning everything built upon that poor foundation of knowledge could be incorrect 

The most horrifying thing that one can imagine is not the nothingness. For several years, I believed that the void was my ultimate fear. In reality, the worst possible ending is not that nothing matters, but the idea that everything matters. If nothing matters, nobody has to worry about screwing up, while, on the contrary, if everything matters, if you screw up, it goes on your permanent record. 
          
          Thus, religion targets this fear that everything matters and makes it so that there is a way out if this situation is the case. This is showcased in the idea of a deity or deities deciding whether or not you can enter some kind of promised paradise. All religions are based off of the simple, horrifyingly real possibility that everything matters. 
          
          (This is not to support or reject any religion or lack thereof.)

Feel free to argue or disregard this as you wish:
          
          People are natural hypocrites. No matter what we do, we are better at finding the faults in others than we are at finding faults within ourselves. I have been trying years upon years to cleanse myself of my own hypocrisy, but never have been able to end it. The problem is that we hate bad things when they affect us, rarely when they affect others. If we do pay attention to others as much as we do ourselves, it's only when it suits us. People are naturally selfish, people are naturally more concerned with themselves than they are others. We have all committed the same act as we have criticized someone else for at some point. 
          
          Thus, this leads to two main ideologies: we can either choose to be hypocrites, or we can choose to condone everything. Both lead to a guilty conscience, both lead to fault.
          
          Have a nice day.