Missyreader Lala

Is it normal to feel like home is feeling empty when mourning a pet?
          
          This is my first loss
          
          Our house has 8 people here and 3 (4) pets, so 11(12)
          
          But 1 is missing..
          
          It is supposed to be 12
          
          Even tho you not here with us physically, I know you here, but it doesn't stop me from hurting from the fact you crossed the rainbow 
          
          I haven't stopped thinking about you
          
          I miss you already :(
          
          You left me your baby Mazikeen he doesn't notice anything yet, but I will be there when he does realise you're not here with us when you should be
          
          Only one went, and yet this house feels empty without you.
          
          Others say not to dwell on the fact we lost you...
          
          But I rather sob about you now, so I don't crash on anyone else
          
          You were the second smallest one in your litter 
          
          And you were still the smallest one out of you 4 pets
          
          And the first to go.

So uhhh.... grieving a pet is weird cause what do you mean I can't hear you meows anymore? 
          
          What do you mean I won't hear you scratch my door so you can come in my room? Like what?? 
          
          
          What do you mean I won't see you sitting on the floor when I open my door?
          
          What do you mean I can't pet you with love anymore...?
          
          What do you mean only 3 came back home when when 4 went..?
          
          4 was supposed to come back home.
          So why are you coming back to me in a urn?
          
          You should've been near the window where you always go to look outside.
          
          My beautiful cat, where did you go?
          
          Why am I mourning you?
          You shouldn't be leaving now.
          
          That's crazy it's too soon for you.
          
          Home was here. 
          
          Please come back to me as s a butterfly.
          
          If not, show me a sign you will be ok.
          
          Were you scared?
          
          Did you know I would've held you while you crossed the rainbow?
          
          I didn't get to say my goodbyes or say I love you.
          
          Mazikeen, I don't want to let go.
          
          But I don’t get to choose, do I..?
          
          I will miss you.....
          
          Goodbye..
          
          I love you.♡
          
          You were still a baby Mazikeen, my baby. ♡
          
          (Time of birth 2020)
          
          (Month/day unknown)
          
          (Time of crossing the rainbow)
          
          (2025 Thu/31/July)
          
          (She left us just all of a sudden.)
          
          Fuck cancer.

GIRL WE NEED YOU BROOOO I NEED YOU YOURE MY LIFE NOW WHEN I OPEN THE COMMENTS YOURE NOT THEREEEEEE!!!! I MISS YOUUUUU!!!!!!!
          .°(ಗдಗ。)°.

OOWWWW (T﹏T) (T﹏T)I CUT MY PINKY TRYING TO CUT MY GREEN APPLE BRUDDA LEEMME EAT YOU B1TCHAHH MF(●︵●)
          (On hotspot if wondering how I posted dis won't last long (..) 
          
          (WE GET WIFI SOON!!!!!)

Babe where are you? I miss your comments bruh :’00000000

Hii

Yall it's 5:34 am 
          
          
          My damn sister scared the fuuuuckkk outta me
          ( ;｀Д´)
          
          I was just vibbing to my music day dreaming and all of suddenly all I see is a dark figure with long dark hair up facing my way scared the FUCKK OUTTA MEEE｡ﾟ(ﾟTДT)ﾟ｡
          
          
          I JUST WANTED TO LISTEN TO MY MUSICCC(..)

If you're wondering what she did to me it's not what she did it's what she isn't doing which is shuttting tf uuupp with her loud ahh
          
           the least she can do is tone it down all i want is peace and quiet(/_＼)

AHHHHH THSI BITCH IS ANNOYING HOW TF IS THIS THE SAME PERSON WHO CAN MAKE ME LAUGH TILL I CAN'T BREATH THE SAME PERSON WHO I WOULD KILL FOR THE SAME ONE I WOULD TEAR APART CITYS FOR?!!??!!?
          
          THE ONE WHO MAKES ME WANT TO CRY SCREAMING RIP OUT MY DAMN HAIR!?!??!!
          
          ME AND HER WOULD NOT BE FRIENDS WE WOULD BE ENEMIES IF WE WEREN'T SIBLINGS!
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          I SWEAR SHE WANTS TO BE THE FIRST PERSON WHO CAUSED MY CRASHOUTS I SWEARRRR AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

Sometimes I wish I can be able to turn down volume in real life because my sister makes me want to d13 with her annoying ahh( ;｀Д´)
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