I fell asleep at 6pm and woke up at 2am. I had to thank God because otherwise I would've gone deeper with thoughts and places I don't want to go. Sleep doesn't usually come so easily for me. Especially when I want to or when there's a lot in my mind and intentionally try to avoid it. Kind of wished it stayed that way for my whole life. Not like in a suicidal way, I'm just kind of tiered of keeping up with being alive.