Luci~

All you lovely, lovely people. I have something sad to say. My Drama teacher, Mr McPherson, died this Monday from a heart attack that he has 6 days before at school. He was such an amazing person. He was an established writer with 2 books published and a 3rd almost finished (Fractured: Dereck Dillinger), plus over 70 plays written and performed all over the world (including in different languages).
          You may know him from the Virgil series or maybe Beowulf on a Budget. Regardless of whether or not you knew him, of him, or didn't know him at all, I have a favour to ask of you. In your profiles on Wattpad, or on your other social media, please put the tag #doitformcpherson in either your bio or a post. 
          I know I have no reason to ask this of you, and almost none of you know me and almost none of you will read this. But I beg of you, please. He had such a big heart and deserved way more than he got. McPherson brought a light to this world that no one else I know has. By spreading this tag, we can spread the message that he was trying to spread all of his life; one of overwhelming love and kindness. 
          If you are a theatre kid, there is a chance you have done one of his plays and not even known it. Regardless, please spread this. It only takes a few minutes, and will really help us bring aware to everything. Thank you all.

Happy birthday to me! Happy birthday to me! Happy birthday to me ~~~~ Happy birthday to me!!!

Gguys. Oh my fucking God. Please read this. This isnt funny. This isnt okay. This is horrific. Please read it. Please understand. Please share it. 
          
          https://my.w.tt/BaOsJaCKMY
          
          This is absolutely terrifying. 

Oh my god fucking mad props to those of you who cosplay regularly. In so fucking hot right now. Like, what the actual fuck.
          
          Anyway! I'm gonna be at Comic Con Atlanta today!!! I'm cosplaying as Ray from The Promised Neverland!!! I'm so excited for loads of fun!!!

I want you guys to know that I haven't had a cigarette for months until tonight. I'm one of the few who don't get addicted to them, as crazy as it sounds, and I can literally stop at any time. I don't get headaches from not having them, and I honestly don't like their taste. But I have been so stressed as of late, specifically today, that I seriously just wanted some relief from it. Just to float for a little while. And so I had one. The fact that I could literally feel the stress dripping out of my pores, says so fucking much. A 14 year old shouldn't have this much stress. They really fucking shouldn't. But it's my fucking life, regardless of how I feel about it. For those of you who don't know, my mom has chronic pain that makes it really fucking hard to do pretty much anything. The doctors can't fucking pinpoint what it is, as she has symptoms of so many different things. Because of this, I have the responsibility of watching over my brothers most of the time. My mother, thank god, has worked really fucking hard these past few years, so now she can walk and drive and do basic things. Since she can't spend all day doing this though, she works for Lyft. This leaves me to watch my brothers from about 7 or 9 am, to whenever she feels like coming home from work. So I'm basically watching them for at least 8 hours a day, maybe more depending on what's going on. I also have to feed them breakfast and lunch, and if she's not home for dinner, then that, too. Now, don't get me wrong, I love my mother. She has worked her ass off to get where she is right now, and I would never discredit her for that. But let me remind you guys tHAT I AM FUCKING 14 YEARS OLD. Plus, on top of watching them, I have to do all my chores. So, even though I am on summer vacation, most days of mine are spent doing work. Not to mention all the mental illnesses I have that make it a struggle to even get out of bed most days. Anyway, I'm not saying any of this for pity. I just kinda needed to rant...

Guys guys. Bro and brodettes. I'm dying. Like, seriously. I just finished an anime on Netflix called 7SEEDS, and I'm so upset. I have to fucking wait for the next Part, and I really don't want to. I just want to see what happens next, and it's so infuriating. If any of you guys have seen it, please DM me so we can rant together about it. My heart is literally falling apart right now.

Guys I'm probably gonna be really sparse on here for a little while... My friend's, who I could very well just call my sister, dog just passed away last night unexpectedly. He was only about a year or two old. I dont know all the details yet, but I'm gonna be there for her for a while.... Send your love guys, this is really hard for her...

oh my fucking god. im dying. like. my god. i forgot i had an annotated bibliography due on the first of may. and i havent even read a book for it. so i chugged a pot of coffee at 1 am and did it over the first harry potter book. and i finished. but i still have 60 math problems to do that i have also been procrastinating on. so like. imma do that later. cuz right now im shaking and my head hurts and im so tired and this is so fucking hard to write  oh my god. i turned in the thing on my school thing with this note attached to it for my teacher "be prepared for my 1 am run down of the first harry potter book that goes from relatively good to me just wanting to be done. im fueled on a pot of black coffee and the knowledge of my undeniable doom. my hands are shaking from sleep deprivation and i still have 60 pages of math to do that i have been procrastinating on for the last week. have fun." so yea. im just gonna sleep and do the math later. oh my god this was a terrible idea. i feel like im gonna die. that shit was long cuz im like a super writer and i cant summarize for shit cuz i always wanna add ALLLLLLLLL the details. ya know?? so like. its supposed to be a summary. and instead its this "1670 words long, 7587 characters without spaces, 6 pages, 18 paragraphs, 113 lines, and if you count the spaces, 9260 characters" because ya child fucking writes to write whether im dying or not. tbh it probs sucks. i dont even know. send help

40 answers to when someone says I love you thats not I love you back:
          1) That's nice
          2) Thanks
          3) Bad idea but I won't stop you
          4) I don't recommend continuing that
          5) Good for you
          6) Nice to know I'm wanted this time
          7) *weird screeching noise*
          8) *weird clicking noise*
          9) It's great how deceptive one can be
          10) Stop
          11) Liar
          12) Good to know that your capable of a basic human function
          13) Hahaha! That's gay.
          14) I'd like to see you try
          15) Good to know
          16) Noted
          17) Flawless. You know I almost believed you?
          18) Hahaha. You're funny.
          19) Message not received
          20) There's that sense of humor I love.
          21) I love me too.
          22) Am I supposed to say it back?
          23) And I love food.
          24) Your parents would be very disappointed
          25) Love is such a frivolous thing isn't it?
          26) And I love knowing that you don't know that I lick your face when you're not looking
          27) Sweet
          28) I don't get it.
          29) Ahhh. Emotions. Things I don't have.
          30) I applaud you for your hard work
          31) I'll start sending out wending invitations
          32) Well, you're not an anime, book, or movie character. Specifically Naruto or Harry Potter. So you just lost a lot of brownie points. How are you going to redeem yourself?
          33) That's almost believable.
          34) That's cute
          35) Forgive me for not caring
          36) Tell me when the baby's coming
          37) If you want child support just ask
          38) Eww
          39) And I'll never understand why
          40) I was hoping this could just be a one time thing, but you go and ruin it with the "L" word

so like its 1 am and i think my mother knows im awake and you know usually i wouldn't give a fuck but like i didnt clean the kitchen and she probably knows i didnt clean the kitchen with that fucking mom-super-power-shit and im just kinda waitin for the asswhoopin but at the same time i dont want the asswhoopin so im tryna stay on her good side but like im still awake and she probably knows that too and i hate to admit it but im a bit scared of my crippled mother who can barely walk but that means she has a cane and that shit would prolly hurt like a bitch so im just kinda waitin for it ya know sorry for the rant im tired and should probably go to sleep but you know im a fucking rebel and oH SHIT SHE HERE GOTTA GO BYE FUCCK