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Hey!! So this one's gonna be a little bit of a sad story time... Also TW this mentions cutting, break up, arguing, ect.
So a couple months ago, I got kicked out of therapy because they wouldn't see me anymore so my depression has gotten a lot worse.. Um.. And that's clearly showed throughout the days I've been at school even though I try to hide it.
My girlfriend has seen the worst of it and instead of helping me, she's been putting me down for it and yesterday broke up with me because it was getting too hard to handle. Which I understand completely.
I've released several times, if you guys could see my arm you'd be very shocked, I'm surprised that no one at school has told anyone but at the same time I don't care.
On the day she and I broke up I had my arms wrapped around her begging her not to, she pushed me off of her and ended the argument with quote: "Get the fuck away from me, you depressed, worthless piece of shit, I didn't love you anyway, you make me sick." And then walked away leaving me crying on the bench.
And today my parents got in a really bad argument and my mom left with the truck and I don't know if she's coming back, and my dad said that she better not have left because if she comes back he's not letting her back into the house.
I'm not sure what to do anymore, I've cried so much that I've gone numb. I'm thinking about killing myself right now at the moment, I've lost all my friends because of the break up, lost my girlfriend, and potentially lost my mom.
There's nothing I have left to live for, I give up. I'm so done but at the same time I'm scared to die.