Kaylee May

Hey I happened across your handle on twitter.  I have a little silly story to tell you and maybe you tell me helpful advice or maybe you *snicker sounds* and under breath me a Putz both are fine as this is anything but silly tale of faulted love it's the silly story of the most pain, sad and in the end a lonely broken heart can get. She was a lady (well a girl really as I first met her as she was recently turned 21. Me well older a bit at any rate ya know her mom and me same age. So when I met her after a very toxic break up sage was my first thought I can hang out and not be all oh fuck me gently I'm in love again. No she was my new friend who listened to me vent about my ex and she really listened I mean she could recall what I said if another were to ask and I was a bit stymied. We went on like this a while and before long one afternoon I was thinking boy would I like to press my lips up to this extordary woman's mouth kiss her softly, moving in a more firmly direction and just a little younger? *Screeching tires sounds* what God's real name just ran through my head. No no I'm not into this so uniquely lovely darling of a woman... Oh man death come now please before this one crushes my heart. See I have one after another broken cheating girlfriend while I stayed loyal and smashed hearted every single time. So I played it cool and stuffed those feelings where they belonged in the basement of my stomach. Ya know until a not so funny girlfriend of mine said I needed to tell her so I did! But I had forgotten how badly I had hurt this girl, you see through no fault of her own she moved to fast and said some words that set off my emotional states defence system and man did I shoot this poor loving angel down. It was like a faulty switch said china was attacking and my super honed defence against heart attacks obliterated her whole heart. I have this cowardly ability to overthink words that can not cause my heart pain. (Well letters running out more later if ya want?)