Kaye's thoughts

Even though there's so many problems I am going through right now, Im glad that I experience this date, Im grateful that Im alive until this day, thats why I just want to wrote some facts about me right now, So if in the future and I saw this letter, I will reminisce this day and I'll know and remember again whats happening in my life today, So Yah btw Im Karylle Mhay C Tena, Im in grade 12 right now and My age is currently 18, Right now I and my sisters are currently living in my auntie guia house in Villa Tupaz San juaquin Pasig City even though our true house is in 109 B Pag-asa St. Caniogan Pasig city, We're just facing a big financial problem right now thats why we're here at my auntie house and btw we're living here for almost 1 month already, We started living here on Jan 26, 2022 and Right now is Feb 22, 2022, so its just 4 days to be 1month,so yah thats all, hihi bye bye
          
          02/22/22 , Tuesday , 4:12 PM

Sleepless night again
          
          - 4:59 AM Friday , 02/04/22

Im bisexual, My family are homophobic when its comes to a family members but if its not a family member they're okay with it. Im tired on keeping it to myself, I want to be free,I feel like I cant breathe because of it, Its hurts every time they say its a sin and I should start changing myself right now, you will never understand because you're not in my shoes, I didn't choose this, sometimes I just wish I become a straight person, sometimes I wish I can change myself and be who they want me to be, so maybe I can feel  free and do whatever I want, Its tiring and suffocating, I want to be free and I want to breathe.
          
          -12/20/21 , Monday

If I die just open my twitter and go to drafts. Oh I forgot my phone password is 2003 while my privacy app password is 888888.
          
          - Wednesday

If you saw what I wrote here, please shut your mouth, keep it zip and keep my thoughts and feelings here, what you read here stays here, if you read it then you are lucky, 'cause never in my life I open up my problems and thoughts to someone even in my friends and relatives, so you're lucky 'cause you're your the first person who know my thoughts and problems aside from twitter draft and wattpad, which is things not a person that's why you're the first person HAHAHA but kidding aside please just keep it here:)
          
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Everyone thinks Im strong because I dont cry  easily, I dont cry often, and I just cry ones in a blue moon, but no you are all wrong, Im not strong like you think, Its just myself who only know how weak I am, maybe I'm not crying but Inside, my heart is breaking, maybe Im smiling but inside Im crying, maybe I cheer you but Inside Im loosing my hope, and all of it is tiring.
          
          -12/08/21 , Wednesday.

Nothing is painful more than seeing your mother crying because of financial problems and u want to help and do something yet u cant do anything, because u dont have ability, u know what I mean?, Its frustrating and also it pressure me like I just want to work so I can help but study sucks, too many school works, and I know I cant do both at the same time. U know the feeling when you just want time to be fast and skip the time where you we're already graduate and have a work so you can help to your mom, to your family financial problems, so you cant see you mom crying again because of financial problems, but I cant, I cant do anything but to pray, I know pray is powerful but at the same time I want to do something, but how? How can I when in the first place Im just studying yet I cant manage my time already what more if I work while studying? What will happen? Im sure I will fail my studies and thats why I cant do anything, Its pressuring and frustrating but at the same time its sad and Im already tired:< 
          
          -12/08/21 , Wednesday

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