Don't really know why but I feel like giving a life update, I've been flucating between writing and not writing because my motivation is also flucating, I planned my suicide but I couldn't go through with it but the idea is still floating around in my head, I have plans for my story but I feel like I'm executing it poorly and not to the level I'd want it to be at, I chalk it up to my lack of ability to write more descriptive, I'm still here I guess and I'm in for a long summer before my senior year, I pray things go well and I don't paint my room red during the summer, I'd like to see myself graduate in a happy position with my prayers coming true and being able to move on with my original plans, anyway thank you for reading my stories if you and if you don't well that's fine too