My brain is dead

I'm in your walls and questioning my gender. I am also wonder what the fuck is going on with my on and off romantic feelings as well as why my therapy session has been delayed because apparently they're trying to contact me despite me not getting any voucemails or calls. How I have not snapped is beyond me. I like writing, drawing, and using character creators like picrew. Pronouns are whatever as long as they're not offensive and used mockingly.