@ICE80EM work on your mental heath babe, you are more than just some so called friends and a boy, do what you like, anything like doing chores, exercise, improve yourself in sense of understanding read inspirational books, just know that life is all about happiness, you have to stay with those who give you that and cut of the person who you think is toxic for you in either way... life is too short yk wasting it on anyone is not worthy... he maybe handsome, good, hot he might be anything and if he is yours, don't worry he'll eventually will be so do what you like and leave all up to the destiny