Bennett😍

Sometimes I was to stay asleep forever. Not dead, but asleep. So I don't have to wake up and repeat the same thing over and over again. So I don't have to wake up and deal with the body shaming by my parents. So I don't have to wake up and be a disappointment to everyone. I don't want to wake up ever. I want to stay dreaming. To stay in a world where I can see things I wish were true. I don't want to wake up because I don't want to get older. My older brother will he leaving for college in a year or two and I'll be getting closer and closer to being an adult. I don't want to grow up and be alone... I was to stay a little kid so I can be carefree and silly. I don't want to be some proper daughter my parents are wishing for. I want to be a boy. But I don't think my parents could fully accept that. So I feel alone in this world. That I can't find someone who can support me for who I am. Someone I physically know. Can physically talk to. Someone to hold me close and wash all my worries away. Waking up is hard sometimes. I don't want to get out of bed or go to school some days. And some days I just want to curl up in my bed and sob. I hate not having anyone to cry to. To rant to.

Update: Nevermind, these bitches ate the rest of the Cannoli without even asking me if I wanted some. Greedy ass bitches are selfish as fuck.

I can't...I just can't forget. I can't stop crying. It hurts.... Yuyin...it hurts... I don't want it to hurt anymore... I want the pain to go away.... I'm so sorry... I'm sorry that I let you down as a friend... I'm sorry I'm troubling you like this.... I want this fire in my heart to go away... I don't want this anymore.... It all my fault....

I miss hanging out with you. Y'know, before the whole boy love thing came in and you fell for him. I'm not angry about it, just...disappointed? I do feel jealous sometimes. Though, that's only because I do want you to pat attention to me. I know, selfish on my part. But I can't help it. You were my best friend and now it's so different after the incident and you getting a boyfriend. I hope you have your fun though.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TECHNOBLADE! o7!! ALSO, HAPPY PRIDE MONTH! I hope you guys have a wonderful day. Be gay! Be trans! Be whatever you feel! Live your life!
          
          Bye stars!
          -Akiio

Happy birthday Akutagawa Ryuunosuke! Be happy and gay little boy.
          
          Anyways, I'm alive! I doing way better now and everything's been good so far.

The sight of you crying still haunts me. I can't even get over the fact that I hurt you. I'm yet again sorry Yuyin. I know you don't want me to apologize, but I can't help it.

I Got you bag of stuff

I still feel very bad for what I did. Even though you forgave me, I still don't forgive myself. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself, and I'll remember what I did to you. I feel like a horrible person too. I know you really do love me as a friend, but I feel like you deserve someone who won't hurt you like I did. I understand if you're still upset at me too. You have every right to resent me for my actions. I just hope you know that I think about what I did a lot and I really hate myself.
          
          I'm sorry I hurt you Yuyin, I hope I can learn how to forgive myself.

Merry Christmas! Even if you don't celebrate, I hope you have a good day today.
          
          -Akio