The first time I read P, I thought it was one of the best Prince books on Wattpad. That May/ December theme was so intense and thrilling , perhaps due to the morality issues somewhat. Because it is Prince, who was ageless and always thought young, along with his sensitivity, that you bought out beautifully in your writing, the relationship was accepted as genuine love that these two people experienced. Your writing is emotion with a capital E. It is the best read and has your readers wanting them to stay together. It is very tense at the moment but they can't deny that pull of soul mates.
I know by reading your conversations that depression dogs you at times. In times of stress, meditation is great to clear the situation but I realise it depends on what depresses you. What you need is a good friend to talk to also, that you can trust. I have two sisters and we always bounce our grumps of each other. It is a lonely sickening feeling being depressed and leaves you feeling helpless. I truly think the best help is to talk to someone close, then you can look from the outside in and get a clearer picture of issues you may have, that you can deal with. It is so personal that really all a friend can do is say they will be there for you. I am down under but you can always write me a " grumble" letter if that will help air some frustrations. Otherwise just writing will be fine. Communication is good. I believe Prince almost had two or three nervous collapses. One when Vanity left, one after Susannah left, one after the death of his son and Larry Graham helped him then. I think he readily suffered depression and was much more sensitive than he let people know. He kept himself hidden for protection and was very lonely.
Give P your J. Take care and all happiness to you. Margi