RuffledRockBoy

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I...
          Its.... Its been a while.... I know.... I'm sorry.... 
          Please forgive me for even talking... 
          Oddly enough... Actually its not really that odd..... I...
          I miss you... But thats to be expected.... I think
          I know your busy.... And I know you probably dont care to much for me anymore.... But I...
          I still love you oddly enough.... And it kinda aches... 
          With out you here... Its different. 
          But there's always something that makes me smile....
          "Trust me" 
          I remember when you told me to trust you that I was a better person than I thought I was.... That I wasn't disgusting.... That I wasn't a freak...
          So... Trust me when I say this... 
          I'll always be waiting for when you and Blu come back... 
          I'll always love you... No matter how long your away.... 
          Your special... Oh so fucking special to me. I want to see you in fucking person... And tell you that your special. Because to me... No one can ever replace you... Not Cass.... Not Blu.... Not Ember.... Not Brandon(defiantly not Brandon. Anyone compared to him is defiantly not anything close to you) 
          I... I hope you get to read this... I dont really care if you dont...
          But...
          Anyways I came by to say that ...
          I love you
          And that you should have a Merry Christmas...
          I dont like to celebrate it.... 
          And I've only told one other person(Cass) that.
          So you better feel special just as I've said...
          Because that's something rare coming from me, a person who usually doesn't say Merry Christmas.
          I ugh...
          Sorry for bothering you and being a burden....
          Bye...