Joee's skullz

(fianl part)
          
          So I wanna thank you all for the journey you took me on all of those years ago. I still appreciate every single one of you for putting up with... The mess of a story that TSWS was. I'm sure I'm just being harsh on it, but I personally would completely overhaul what I've written nowadays. (I like some parts of it and use a lot of those more serious themes in current work I do, but I definitely had no clue how to handle them properly back then)
          
          On regards to my Aaron X Reader: I'll keep it up, but I know for a fact it isn't going anywhere, and I'll change things to reflect that. It was sadly one of my many ideas that I could never find a good progression for. Same with TTA (an original story, no longer available on my page to read). I could nevr take the premise anywhere, but maybe I'll publish what I originally had just so people can see it- maybe be inspired. 
          
          
          You're all lovely people, and all of your comments always made my days. I remember always getting such joy when someone commented on a chapter or when I'd see that I got a new follower. You all were so sweet, and I'm really sorry that I left you hanging for so long. I really hope this can serve as some sort of resolve for you, as it does for me.
          
          I wanted (and still want) to do so many things and my mental state is just... It's not allowing me to do so anymore. I really am trying to improve, and I want everyone to try too. And I think that finally saying/writing this was what I needed to help me officially move on.
          
          So, please, stay safe. And bye for now. Maybe you'll see me around in the comments of a story (I still read on here every now and then). Maybe I'll appear randomly with a few chapters of a story concept. We'll see. 
          
          Thank you so, so much for reading, and stay warm, everyone.
          
                     -Author Sama(kun)

(part 2)
          
          Now about TSWS as a series: I have no clue. I had wrote a good 5-8 chapters of the second book and completely lost it all. I had over 20k words (1-3k words per chapter) vanish into thin air right under my nose. I genuinely have no clue what was even on there anymore and I hate thinking about it. Every time I do, I get upset and it demotivates me from trying again. So until then? Any ending you see fit is appropriate I suppose. I always liked more ambiguous cliff-hanger endings, so I suppose I should be happy I at least finished the first book. (That said, I'm not a big fan of the story I have anymore and honestly wanna delete it off the face of the earth, but I won't)
          
          If anyone wants to continue the story, DM me. I don't mind passing up the torch, because at least it can live on somewhere. I think that's the second best outcome.
          
          
          
          Will I still write/Other stories: I have lots of stories to tell and in many forms! I've been working on my coding and game development skills, I wanna try animation one day, I've been considering comics, and more importantly: I'm taking an idea seriously and currently am writing something for my own personal enjoyment.
          
          I'll keep up all my stories, and I might update my Chapbook since I have poems and crap I've written recently, too-- but I don't know where I'll go from here. Maybe if I finish my story and feel good about it, I'll post it here. Maybe I won't. Maybe I won't ever have the motivation to write anything else ever again and everything I've done was a waste. I don't know... But I really wanna try.
          
          (Hold on for part 3)

Heya. Long time no see, huh? Lemme explain some things. (This is gonna be long (and a multi-parter) but I think it's necessary for my closure). 
          
          First up, activity, motivation, writing, etc.: I feel like utter garbage all the time. And it gets worse with the passing days with little breaks. Writing really helped me relieve that stress back when I was still in middle and started off TSWS. Sadly, I had a large creators block around that time and things weren't the same for me since.
          
          I struggled with a lot of identity crisis back then (Nowadays it's not a crisis, so much as my sanity is crumbling around me and it's getting hard to exist without feeling like my life will be ruined by trying to just be myself.) and workload never helped me relax. So TSWS wasn't a priority for a while, and I stopped caring about the story I made. What especially sucked, was that I knew what was happening.
          
          Like most Aph fans and fanfic writers who grow up, they stop watching her content and stop writing fanfics. I didn't want that to happen, but of course it was always going to. I still love and cherish Aphmau and MyStreet, but not as much as I used to. Maybe if season 7 comes out I can gain inspiration again. Who knows.
          
          (End of part one, hold on as I get part 2)

Alright- Changed up my name! 
          
          For now I'm gonna be HoldethMineBeer 
          
          
          Just until I find something I prefer. 

Wow... Three years on Wattpad and I still haven't rebranded. 
          
          
          I should fix that

Feelin emo?
          
          Miss Evanescence? 
          
          Well is it your lucky day! Evanescence released a new single called "Use My Voice" a while back! Go and listen to your heart's content; it's totally worth it. 
          
          And while your at it? Go listen to "The Game Is Over" and "Wasted On You" by Evanescence as well. I'm pretty sure that Use My Voice is just a single independent from the album Wasted On You and The Game Is Over are going to be on. (The album's name is going to be The Bitter Truth I believe) 
          
          Who knows when the next Evanescence song for the new album will drop or when they'll just do another single independent of it. But either way- go ahead and listen. 
          
          
          Mkay bai.

I'm... So tired... 

Merry Pride Month everyone- 
          
          Go be nice to your neighbourhood gay- 
          
          Do you happen to be that neighbourhood gay? Same. Go be nice to yourself this month. And every month. (Words I need to love by) 
          
          Uh- I'm not good at encouraging shit- 
          
          Love yourself. Accept yourself. LOVE YOURSELF- aCcEpT yOuRsElf- (I hope someone gets that)
          
          I was gonna go to the shooting range for my birthday with my uncle this month but that got cancelled so- I guess I'm gonna go to cheesecake factory and/or get dysphoria again for my birthday-
          
          But my pains aside- Have a nice life everyone. Not just a nice month- A nice year and a good life.

Yo- how do you guys feel about a story about a Panda Revolution?
          
          
          Totally asking for Dr Resurrection... and not me...

Guess who just put out a chapter for something that isn't what anyone was asking for?
          
          
          Uh yeah- Once Upon A Chapbook has a new chapter if you wanted to read some poetry or whatever- 
          
          Stay warm guys- 
          
          -Author Sama