Rain

Hello darling. 
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I'm nothing and will always be nothing. 
If you think otherwise, keep it to yourself. 
I'm not here to socialize. 
I'm here to read books. 
Don't talk to me without a reason. 
I'm not someone that is good to be friends with. 
I'm not someone you should like. 
All of my friends get hurt in the end. 
It's a cycle.
And it will never end. 
No matter how much I want it to. 
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I'm a Scorpio and Slytherin. 
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If you have a question, ask it. 
If you want a story continued, say it. 
Speak your mind. 
I don't like pushovers. 
I don't like attention seekers. 
I don't like most people, but I tolerate them. 
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I enjoy listening to music. 
I like hiking. 
I like reading. 
I like writing. 
I like drawing. 
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If you have a problem with me, just say it. 
I don't like liars. 
If you need to talk, I'm here. 
If you need to take your anger out on someone, I'm here. 
If you need to hate someone, I'm here. 
I'll be a rag doll if you need me to be. 
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It's a bit funny. 
I'm actually quite self destructive. 
But no one realizes it. 
Because of how I do it. 
I act like someone I'm not. 
Then I make everyone hate me. 
So they don't realize I'm actually trying to destroy myself. 
They just think I'm a... not so nice word. 
They hate me. 
And I hate myself. 
And they don't realize it. 
Because they don't care enough to see it. 
Because they don't want to. 
Because I don't matter. 
I make them hate me. 
Because I deserve it. 
I deserve to be hated. 
I deserve every nasty thing they call me. 
I don't deserve any kindness. 
I don't deserve happiness. 
So why did he stay by my side? 
Why did he see through it? 
Why did he come to me instead of the ones I hurt? 
Why couldn't he be like the others? 
Now he's gone. 
He doesn't care anymore. 
No one cares anymore. 
Isn't this what I wanted?
To be alone. 
To be hated. 
To be ignored. 
It's what I deserve.