HellGlitch

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I went to the dentist to fill a cavity I had and my Mother offered for me to squeeze her hand if I felt too scared or if I was in pain. I had accidentally squeezed on her vein and it hurt her, so I apologized because even if she is a bitch I don’t want to hurt her. A moment ago she mentioned it again when telling my aunt how her day went an I again apologized for it and my sister called me a liar. When I asked why she thought I was lying she called me vindictive and said that I intentionally dig my nails into soft spots on peoples skin when they offer for me to squeeze them when in pain so as to cause them more pain than I am feeling. This made me upset and I tried to argue and tell her it wasn’t true, but she wouldn’t listen and kept calling me a liar, but proposed that if I’m not lying then I do it subconsciously and again called me vindictive. Now I’m questioning if I really am doing it to be a bitch because it doesn’t take much to have me question my memory, or emotional/ mental state. So Im probably going to spend the next few hours questioning myself, feeling like shit, and zoning out.

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@HellGlitch uhhh damn bro
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HellGlitch

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I went to the dentist to fill a cavity I had and my Mother offered for me to squeeze her hand if I felt too scared or if I was in pain. I had accidentally squeezed on her vein and it hurt her, so I apologized because even if she is a bitch I don’t want to hurt her. A moment ago she mentioned it again when telling my aunt how her day went an I again apologized for it and my sister called me a liar. When I asked why she thought I was lying she called me vindictive and said that I intentionally dig my nails into soft spots on peoples skin when they offer for me to squeeze them when in pain so as to cause them more pain than I am feeling. This made me upset and I tried to argue and tell her it wasn’t true, but she wouldn’t listen and kept calling me a liar, but proposed that if I’m not lying then I do it subconsciously and again called me vindictive. Now I’m questioning if I really am doing it to be a bitch because it doesn’t take much to have me question my memory, or emotional/ mental state. So Im probably going to spend the next few hours questioning myself, feeling like shit, and zoning out.

call-me-gabe

@HellGlitch uhhh damn bro
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HellGlitch

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Can someone please help me understand how the fuck my mother thinks it is completely ‘okay’ for my grandfather to make over-sexual comments about my body and constantly touch me {poke, rub my shoulders, or hold me against him in a one-sided hug} despite me telling him on multiple occasions in front of her that it make me extremely uncomfortable to be touched? 
          I am uncomfortable when anyone touches me at all without asking first and me agreeing, and I have told them so many timed yet they continue to do it despite having seen me have numerous breakdowns from being touched too many times.

HellGlitch

@Retrolovingblossom 
            I’m sorry you had to go through anything similar to this. I hope your life is far better now or in the near future.
            Thank you so much for reading what I had to say. I hope you can enjoy the rest of your day/ night.
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HellGlitch

@Retrolovingblossom 
            In all honesty, my Father wasn’t the best. That is completely true.
            But during their custody battle for me and my younger sister our Father had began trying to put an end to his drug abuse. We were left to discover that on our own, as we weren’t allowed to see him during the custody battle.
            He was neglectful, and would beat is when in trouble. But he wasn’t a narcissist with a victim complex, neglectful, manipulative, wouldn’t gaslight us and belittle us, and and beat us just because our grades in one class slipped slightly or saying something he didn’t like. No, that was my Mothers job.
            Sorry for unloading so much to you. I slightly just needed to vent to someone who had no connection to my Mother to report back so my Mother could deny it and beat me and/ or try to gaslight me and tell me it never happened.
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Retrolovingblossom

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@HellGlitch  I went through a lot of trauma similiar to what your mom does. This shit wack, and they really think they something special because they "take care of us" yet won't fess up to this shit when we ask them later. Don't fall into this trap you hear me? One way or another you are gonna get out that environment into somewhere better. This ain't the end of your story.
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