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Long time, no see.
I haven't updated anything in almost five months now. I guess I could start with I'm sorry, but I'll quickly follow that up with I have my reasons. I've been so bitter with my life lately that it hasn't even crossed my mind to update. I wish I had the drive, but it sort of seems like anything that can go wrong will at this point. From family passing, to stupid fucking boys wasting my time, I've been a little preoccupied.
I would like to add that there is nothing more insulting and humiliating then to actually care for someone only to find out that you were just their distraction. It's sort of a long story that I won't get into here, but this is what currently has me distraught.
Besides, I don't really have anywhere to vent this sort of thing, so it looks like you're my lucky audience.
Long story short, I think what I really need now is a distraction. I haven't written so much as a paragraph in the last five months, so maybe it's time to get back to writing. I'm going to sit at this computer until I get something on the page. I'm hoping to get an update out tonight, but I can't guarantee it. I just know that if I keep sitting around thinking about all the things that suck in my life, I'm going to go insane ...