Midnight

I have this weird feeling that the people I once talked to in this app are slowly finding me in this account lol I'm glad they still use wattpad but I wonder if they even remembered me from the past. I took such a long break not just from writing itself but from writing and socializing with people too, as I grow older my interests have changed and so was the passionate fire I had to write. I was once only just 12 when I started, spellings and grammar being my worst enemy, and now I'm almost 19 and I wonder if I can still write the same way, to keep the people interested in what I write. It feels odd to miss the younger me who once spent every midnight publishing chapters in a strict schedule with my cracked phone, talking with people and having experiences that have been ingrained in my memory to forever be looked back at when I miss the past. It's such a shame that most of the people I had great memories with I now have no contact with anymore. If the world is truly small, I hope that one day I can speak with them again:) 

Struggling to find the inspiration to write again... It must be because life has been a lot serious than it was before. How tides change and that itself overwhelms me to no end. I wonder when will come the time I can rest, be in my head, and write. Regrets fill me to no end on how I took advantage of the peaceful past I once had and only saw the beauty of it all when I'm in ruins. My heart longs for a rest that isn't forever but is ever lasting. 

Calm down wattpad, author's block is a thing and I am dying over here-

Graduating is tiring </3

If by feb 14 I can publish my Nayeon x Reader. I'll be so proud of myself lol

Happy new year<3

I might move my deadline to january 1 because I just cannot for the life of me find songs that can inspire me to write the chapters I want mfmdsijfniajnfs

I read my 2018 twice oneshot book- I want to drown in shameʘ⁠‿⁠ʘ

Thinking of making a twice related book for january but I'll probably think about it when I finish this suayeon book that I'm doing rn </3 And if I get another break from school :')

Putting a deadline on myself that by dec 24 Im done with my Suayeon book omfgಥ⁠_⁠ಥ