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Hey guys.
Sorry for the LONG and I mean L O N G absence. Even more sorry to say that it's going to continue.
Reason for that is that I still have not gotten diagnosed for ADHD and not gone to therapy or gotten medication yet. For some reason the entire thing dragged on for this long and still nothing.
Now that I know the symptoms. I can say with confidence. That ADHD sucks! When you want to be productive as possible. Like I WANT to work on something like the new book I promised but haven't gotten to continue working on it for MONTHS.
At some point I gave up trying to force myself because it was just too much effort to force myself every single day despite my untreated adhd. SO, I decided that I'd rather wait for the help to arrive. So that I don't end up disliking writing in the end. I still read a shit ton of fanfics. I read a lot of bnha ones too. I know that their community is notorious for... things... but the thing I read were really enjoyable to read, at least to me... I have a pretty low standard for that sort of thing.
I just hope that it will come as soon as possible so that I can start working on improving my self as a whole with the help that I needed way back when I was a kid but never gotten. Turns out. I got adhd from my biological dad! That is about 13 years dead, give or take. My mom told me that he had been struggling with the same things I have described recently and adhd is hereditary so there is my answer. My parents always just told me that it wouldn't be a problem If I was trying hard enough. That always hurt to hear because I have been trying to overcome my weakpoints. But they always said that appearantly I wasn't if I was still struggling. And how noone was going to care if I had adhd or not at a job or something. It insinuated that I was faking it only because at school you get some handicaps when you get diagnosed. Again disregarding what I thought about it. My parents know nothing at all.
So I ask that you keep being patient