Fuckwhatswrongwithme

I had a dream where I somehow went back in time, I was going to restart where everything in my life went wrong, I was already starting to do it until I woke up. It possibly was the only dream where the solution wasn't running away 

I'm supposed to get up at 8:00 am, I fell asleep in front of the heater, now it's 7:27 am

I just remembered I buried a stick like a year ago I can't find it

I can't decide whether or not to run away, I'm outside right now 

Anyway my brother came back from the hospital hours ago because it was too long of a wait 

Me and my brother were checking codes for the updated version of thisisnotawebsitedotcom.com apparently Bill was scared when he was petrified 

Anyway, my brother went to the hospital because of the hit to the neck

My brother went to fight this cunt, Blade, it was supposed to be a 1v1, but Blade showed up with multiple people. My brother only had his friend watching, anyway, they were 1v1 at first, then one of Blade's mates hit my brother on the neck from behind, so he and his friend had to fight Blade and his mates, my brother saw one of the guys (I forget his name) put his hand in his pocket like he had a knife, so my brother had to call the fight off. After, my brother's friend told him that he saw him have a knife 

I'm starting to get pissed off, on my fanfic 'Xedoc or Cipher? Dipper or Mason?' I've been getting requests from artists to commission them to draw the fic, I've been getting them for a while now, I even got at least a couple requests on 'Already over' too, and it's starting to really piss me off 

My moth, Val is gone, I left my room and closed the door, after I went toilet I needed to get him food, me, my mum, and my brother went outside, when we couldn't find any flowers we started looking at my cactus, then I saw a moth, the same kind as Val, so I asked my mum to check if he's still in my room, he wasn't, then I looked all over the room couldn't find him