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I'm going to comic con in a week!!!!
          
          I'm super excited idk. I'm gonna Miss Pauling from tf2 just because I dont have time to think of and put together a full cosplay and that one's has been rotting in my closet for months since I never wore it. It's gonna look really bad but I'm there for the experience and my friends are also beginners so idk.
          My friend I made the scarf for will be there as the fourth doctor!!! They're the one who invited us to go, my other friend will be ITrapped lol. 
          My fourth doctor friend and I are planning to stay after to watch the drag show (as long as no one's parents find out idk we haven't planned everything out yet) since I can drive. 
          No matter what happens im excited bc it's gonna be my first and it'll be super fun :))) 
          
          Also I might be going to take a fencing lesson with my fourth doctor friend! I'll probably only take the one but yk. New experiences-- im so nervous though 
          
          Anyways good night im excited for everything lolol see you guys laterrrr 

I was talking to one of my friends about me and my other friend and I called us 'woman and other period haver' and they said it was genuinely very gender affirming so I'm glad I could do that :) 

Sometimes I don't want girl pronouns but I also don't want boy ones or non-binary or neopronouns or anything else so I'm stuck with girl ones because there's nothing else and that makes me sad 

I forget that straight people aren't used to their otps dying before they even got to kiss bro I'm so used to it I didn't cry when Jinu died it was a cool sacrifice and I was sad but I have to admit I wasn't moved to tears IM SO SORRY. I was moved to tears when the girls finished their song and everyone was connected and Rumi accepted herself tho that was sweet 

I had terrible cramps, threw up, and I just took a nap for like four hours and I'm finally ready to eat something I hope my mom get home soon because DAMN I'm hungry 

Oh it's bc I started my period. Don't bother with me guys I'm sorry 

You cooked with your theme (ba-dum-tish)

Someone please be here I feel really alone
          I'm so sorry for the constant complaining and asking for validation but I guess I'm just going through it, which isn't fair because I see the people around me go through so much worse every day. 
          So I guess in second thought, don't worry about it. If anyone wants to drop by I'd like it, I see a lot of other people get a bunch of replies to shit like this idk. I feel bad tho :/

Me when school starts in a week and a half and I still have to read the entirety of The Great Gatsby, the entirety of Common Sense, do study questions for both books, and do over forty pages of a math packet and I haven't started any of it and I don't want to start any of it and why can't I start any of it what's wrong with me 

Why it feel so empty how can I fix it