FairyYuunemi

Hi everyone how are you?
          I won’t respond until Sunday because I will be at a camp the same probably goes for two weeks after Wednesday next week <3

My step dad never really liked my interests and I get that he insulted them but recently these insults get more personal ??? I think like just a few minutes ago he said I should do more sports and he knows I am not really into sports :/ and the fact that he sometimes makes jokes about my body??? idk :( I just feel kinda hurt??? But I thought it was normal I mean he does not hesitate to call someone out if they seemingly weight a few pounds more than average… and if I tell him to stop which he doesn’t and then I start yelling and my mom tells me to stop… 
          I also can’t figure out if he is against lgbtq+ or not because his daughter has a trans boyfriend and he never said a word but he always says it’s bs.
          ???? I honestly don’t understand it anymore :(
          
          (Do you ever look in the mirror see a part of your body and then think you’re kinda pretty but as soon as you see the full view you feel ugly???? Or think of ways to change your looks ??? 
          I kinda had anorexia, I just stopped eating for 2 weeks and I still didn’t feel like eating but when I saw that I wasn’t losing weight but actually gaining weight I started eating little food and it’s still annoying:/)
          TO ALL OF YOU WHO FEEL THAT WAY OR SIMILAR, YOU ARE PERFECT THE WAY YOU ARE !!!

I think Mother Nature hates me.
          I just started shark week and here is the thing… I bleed strong and I am going freaking camping ???? EVERY FREAKING TIME WE GO CAMPING IT STARTS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!!!??? 
          SO IT MIGHT NOT BE THE BEST IDEA FOR ME TO BE RESPONSIBLE OVER 8 YEAR OLD CHILDREN LIKE THIS !… 
          My temper is really bad :/ before and during it

I finally came back from school :D 
          
          my friends and me were talking and somehow our home room teacher got brought up and then one of my friends said something about his ‘wife’ and I said : “Isy … that man does NOT have a wife. He doesn’t even have a wedding ring and he didn’t mention a wife like EVER and I am 100% sure it would’ve slipped he talk about everything” and then one of our other friends said : “my mom said she thinks he is gay”. And J (our other friend) was drinking at the moment and spilled it :/. And I said “… you got a point. He’s always mentioning lgbtq+ in the love stories we read :O” and now that I think about it he is one of 2 teachers that openly “support” lgbtq+ … 
          
          
          Not us talking about our teachers love life at lunch :3

I died today <33 
          I needed to rewrite the whole exam in 15 minutes :/ my hand started to hurt afterwards….
          And in the Class photo I was besides the people that HATE me !!! 
          And afterward one girl said „all the girls should take a picture together!“ 
          My friend walked over to them and then the same girl said „sorry, the COOL girls“ 
          LIKE WHAT ????! If cool means being a fake friend then sure :D go ahead and life my friendgroup out!!! 
          
          The only positive thing is that a friend of mine started calling me Feli :D only my dad is using that nickname for me, usually everyone just calls me Fee. But it’s a good thing if she feels comfortable using a nickname for me!

I was sick last week and I just found out that I have a freaking exam tomorrow???!!!! It’s 40% of my grade and nobody told me what it’s about…
          I am already writing three other exams this week and three others next week???? Like can some teachers wait till AFTER the holidays?

I just got an email from my school.
          On Tuesday we are taking pictures for the yearbook and I would normally say I am cooked 
          But thank god usually I am in the back (I am the shortest one in my grade) 
          But then I remembered that I will probably be in the front on the floor…
          And my friends are all tall as hell?! 
          Like they are all about the same height but a whole head taller then me???? 
          Besides it will be so awkward because my forced smiles are the definition of awkward and awful. 
          I stoped smiling in pictures and other things ever since my smile got called ugly by my ex best friend and because I get weird looks for it… :D

I rewatched “Nerdy prudes must die” and I cried again and got traumatized.
          Overall 10/10 would recommend just a little second hand embarrassment towards the end

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