EnergeticDumbassUwU

I hate my life. Like yeah I got a roof over my head and food in my stomach even though I don't eat on many occasions. I feel empty and alone. I feel unloved and too clingy. I put everyone before me. It's unfair and it hurts. I can't be normal or myself. I don't even have my own room. I mean everything has always been unfair. So basically it's damn near fair isn't it. 

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@patheticgril our story is similar...
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Ih34RtK4Rma

@DumbassTwT Im glad to hear that you are doing better.
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DumbassTwT

@Ih34RtK4Rma yeah I'm doing better had a lot of breakdowns due to a relationship I had. But just had to break it off. Both of us are fine with how things ended however My rage fits are getting intense again. 
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VioletRose0915

hi which roleplays do you like doing?

VioletRose0915

@VioletRose0915 aaa sorry I don't think I was on your profile when you said anything about roleplays and l'm also sorry if my message was confusing
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DumbassTwT

@VioletRose0915 No wait no cause. I'm confused. I swear I've mentioned this once I just don't think it was the way you described it. 
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VioletRose0915

@VioletRose0915 aaa sorry I thought you did roleplays
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miriotamakinejire

CHECK YOUR FOLLOWERS!!
          CHECK YOUR FOLLOWERS!!
          CHECK YOUR FOLLOWERS!!
          CHECK YOUR FOLLOWERS!!

DumbassTwT

@miriotamakinejire Huh? Wait why? I haven't been on this account for a while but still? 
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DumbassTwT

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This is like the fourth fucking profile I've had to create for this Dann app. First I broke like two of my phones the. I LOST THE ONE WITH THIS DAMN PROGRESS!! I'm utterly pissed due to this fact but the only reason I'm even on here is due to one story. Currently "You're my everything" is still in progress I still have it planned out I just needed a moment to process. Besides I haven't been on here often enough. 
          
          Oh and before I forget how is everyone Haven't talked to yall in a WHILE. 

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@DumbassTwT why is that me? I've had five accounts in a month which isn't too bad but it's up there.
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Ih34RtK4Rma

@DumbassTwT Ah that makes sense
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DumbassTwT

@Ih34RtK4Rma Nope I forget my passwords all the time and Someone took my phone last time so now I'm writing them all down 
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EnergeticDumbassUwU

I hate my life. Like yeah I got a roof over my head and food in my stomach even though I don't eat on many occasions. I feel empty and alone. I feel unloved and too clingy. I put everyone before me. It's unfair and it hurts. I can't be normal or myself. I don't even have my own room. I mean everything has always been unfair. So basically it's damn near fair isn't it. 

1e1v1i1

@patheticgril our story is similar...
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Ih34RtK4Rma

@DumbassTwT Im glad to hear that you are doing better.
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DumbassTwT

@Ih34RtK4Rma yeah I'm doing better had a lot of breakdowns due to a relationship I had. But just had to break it off. Both of us are fine with how things ended however My rage fits are getting intense again. 
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EnergeticDumbassUwU

I'm not diagnosing myself but I think I have an ED my stomach just felt sickening after asking for something to eat does anybody else feel this way?

Shadow-Walkress

@EnergeticDumbassUwU I personally, but you can talk to me. My pms remain open for anyone who needs to let it out, free of judgement. No pressure, but I’m always an option if you need it.
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EnergeticDumbassUwU

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I feel sick. Like everything right now feels disgusting I want to hurl and watch blood stream down my arms right now. I constantly see myself being tortured or even worse raped by my own family members and the thought of food is just revolting. I want to scream and cry and harm myself in the worst ways. I seek blood that's not my own and pain inflicting on everybody but me. I feel sick but happy when thinking these I need help. I know I do yet I don't know how to ask for it. I just want to die. But it's all a joke and I can't even screw around without someone feeling the need to protect someone like me. I've done so many things wrong yet I've never done any of my intrusive thoughts my anger gets worse and everything is frustrating. Tomorrow's a Friday and I'm happy but yet I'm not. The only people Who make or give me a reason to live I won't even get to see. I live in a fucking hotel and I'm damn near homeless I'm being promised so many things. I'm I'm greedy fucking kid because I don't wanna feel alone again. 

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@EnergeticDumbassUwU I have no idea how you feel but some of the things here I relate to somehow? I want me to suffer and feel pain though. I crave it somehow...? My reason to live is literally I'm a weak child who can't get the balls to kill themselves. But hey, we're still here so let's at least make others feel better, ok? Life's a huge joke and we are the punch lines. So lets try and give them an alright show with a happy ending. It has to get better, am I  right? Hopefully you'll meet someone in real life that understands you. Till then, I give you my respect and the best of luck. If you ever find yourself too lost, you'll find people here and some even where you are.
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EnergeticDumbassUwU

How would the Heros react to an angst fiction where they die!?
          
          Denki, Kirishima, Ochako- Crying 
          Deku- confused Crying
          Mina,  tearing up
          Sero- confused 
          Katsuki- Screaming in tears
          Momo, Iida, and - shocked 
          Tsu - surprised
          Todoroki- "Could've been worse" 
          Hitoshi and Jiro- Not even phased 

EnergeticDumbassUwU

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Started thinking five second ago about some weird shit I did as a kid. And Let's just say that I think I was a Kinky and horny kid. Like not even 12 younger man. I used to watch the weirdest shit and was fascinated by the positions people were in during sexual actions. And I swear I tried some of those things. 
          
          But now growing up and thinking about it..... I was never touched I didn't like physical touch unless it was from my mother and even then no. So oh mind you I'm around 9 when this started. But I remember this one time I started thinking about my cousin and imagining those things... TuT and rn I'm so fucking disappointed but impressed by my younger self. This didn't last long.. and I FUCKING THANK THE DEEPS OF HELL FOR THAT!!!

EnergeticDumbassUwU

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@Shadow-Walkress Great fucking mistakes 
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Shadow-Walkress

@EnergeticDumbassUwU it’s cuz that’s the age where we were all doing some random thing that wasn’t socially acceptable and then we remember it later— At age ten, I read my first smut and was so scared and confused, I didn’t know what a lemon was I thought they were talking about the fruit. Then six months later I wanted to try it again— And now I exist. Mistakes were made.
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EnergeticDumbassUwU

@Shadow-Walkress Don't apologize I was laughing to 
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EnergeticDumbassUwU

Since no one reads these I wanna say something. I used to have silly crushes in elementary. One thing for sure is I fell in love with this boy. His name was joe joe. He knows me by angel. The cute little girl who thought he cheated on her in fifth grade. The one who followed him even after realizing where he lived. But what I want to say is.... for a while now I've been thinking about him. His smile used to make me happy and the small kisses or physical touch always gave me butterflies. Like the hugs or even head pats were the best. I haven't seen him in five or seven years. 
          
          I moved to Cali shortly after I graduated from sixth grade. Nothing was really the best but I've been thinking about him. And I really fell for him all over again after imaging his smile. He had no idea what impact he made on me. And now even though I haven't seen him for a while I still love him. He won't love me since he's about three or five ages above me. I just miss him. I think his real name was joesph. Barnes. I felt my heart break earlier after realizing my thoughts and heart weren't the same. I always loved him but I forgot. Everything's stressful and I wanna see him again. This will never get to him but. If he's out there and he somehow manages to see this. Which I doubt. I love and miss you far to much. And this right here is breaking my soul. I'll probably never see you again. And it's killing me. 

Shadow-Walkress

@EnergeticDumbassUwU why do i know somebody named joseph barnes then? what is my life?
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Shadow-Walkress

@EnergeticDumbassUwU Aw, that sucks. You from Houston? Think I might know him…
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EnergeticDumbassUwU

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???: " OH MY GOD SARAHS BLEEDING!!"
          
          ME: Yeah no shit isn't her period this week? 
          
          ???:*Staring in disgust* " NO!!" 
          
          ME: "No? Really? The fuck did she do? "
          
          ???: "she fell down the stairs!! "
          
          ME: *trying not to smile or laugh in the corrner*