❣Elisa❣

Maybe you are wondering where the fuck I was all this months?
          
          Well...
          I could go on about how I was abducted by aliens and I escape with the power of friendship but I want to be honest.
          
            For the people who don't know, I want to become a dentist, and in medical school it's very competitive but I also want to learn because I want to be a good dentist and I don't want to use chat gpt or whatever and it takes a lot of time and I am getting tired very fast now.
          
           I have an exam that I need to have more than 85/100 to be really in a good spot and really I don't have also the motivation to even sit and think about ideas for the fanfics.
          
          Also I am learning a lot more because it's "free" for me the university, I am not paying like the others because they can have like 69/100 or like 64/100, they will still have their place

Bruh, recently I started love and deepspace (the otome game)
          
          And the thing i want to say is that....
          
          
          What the actual fuck?? The lore is soo good.
          
          I remark that now gacha games have better lore than movies now.
          
          Genuinely, if you want a story with angst, harem, badassfemale lead, science fiction genre, fantastic genre, time loop, time travel, parallel dimension travel, magic and gods.
          
          The game is for you
          
          
          But but but, it's very hard to understand the timeline so make sure to watch this video
          
           [ https://youtu.be/PRVtPR7smkM?si=WcJgpl-aQv4L5Hqq]
          
           that explain the timeline, it's a little outdated but it will help you a lot than trying to understand all the bullshit alone and get discouraged lol.
          

I almost forgot to say but just for this week i have 8 tests that all are 2 hours long.
          Isn't that just fuking lovely  (shoot me)

  I found a way to motivate myself to write fanfiction. I just imagine it's a love letter for the characters.
          
           Let me explain, when I love a show, boy how i love it, i am almost obsess with it so that's way it's like a love letter for my adoration for the story
          
          It's funny how i resolve a problem and i get another problem almost instantly. 
          
          Either i don't have the time or I don't have motivation and sometimes both so i can really just hit my head against a wall repetitively.
          
          God damm it, all i write is just world building, drafts, infos for my ocs and for the timeline.
          
          I miss writing scenarios 
          
          [Also I am alive, kinda...let me explain, this year is a very important one for my marks and i want to have good grades my average is 15,2/20 (surprisingly) and i really try to get it to at least 17/20 (you can call me a nerd i know that i am one)  ofc i will not study to have 18/20 because i still want a life outside school but anyways what i am trying to say is that i am half way from falling (don't let my 15,2/20 fool you) it's the english, germen (surprisingly) and french (surprisingly) subjects that makes the average high. I am really late in physics lessons  plus it doesn't help that every week there is a new chapter to study. This is too hardcore. I should have just get isekai in a BSD otome game AU at this point i need to restart getting religious so i don't go crazy with all my life crap, plus it doesn't help that i become a young adult (quick question for you, at what age you consider someone an adult?) And i need to do a lot of paperwork and guess what? I still don't have my driving license  (because it's kinda expensive and i am a lot of things (immature, thinks she is funny but actually not, gaslight herself) and have a lot of things (delusion, tears of poor, cats, ADHD)but rich isn't something i got

Right now I am thinking howto publish....
          
          So I need other opinions than myself lol.
          
          I have seen that i have a pattern, let me explain: i have a new idea, i braintot with it for two days with all made arcs, filter arcs and original ideas but there are some plotholes which it's kinda logic if i think for only 2 weeks. I need months of preparation for a story to not have inconsistencies. 
          
          So either i publish 2 or 6 chapiters in 1 month and then i put the story on semi hiatus until i get inspiration or I do what i did until now...not publishing until i don't finish planing my story A to Z.....
          
          Fuck it! I feel i don't pregress if i don't publish my plan drafts that some are 4 years old! At this point what am i waiting ? Ww3? 
          
          I will not gonna lie...i am kinda insecure about my writing, that's why i don't update new chapiters and just edit the old ones. I don't like my writing and funny enough I think i will always be my biggest hatter lol.
          
          But I need to remind myself that that's why i wanted to start writing fanfics to begin with. To improve my vocabulary and grammar at the same time I write about my favorites characters and universes!
          All i am trying to say is that if someone ever write a mean comment at any points...
          
          
          I will drown that person with my tears lol
          

Sorry for not posting anything for months, my car got itself on fire (like really, no one really know how, they theories that it's because something was malfunctioning)
          
          And alsi I am alright, i wasn't inside the car when that happened lol
          
          And I kinda wanna stop being a fanfiction writer because this happened when I finally redtarted writing for my fanfiction lol.
          
          Maybe I will start Gacha react with BSD

I am alive!!! Sorry for the long wait but I promise it's worht it, I have like 18 oneshots planned and I think that I will write next month❤️❤️❤️

Lol Sorry I said that I could write but my school had other plans, I have soo much homework that for this 4 days I will only do my homework. I have 3 assignments, 2 big tests that I need to learn for 9 hours and then another that will need for me to learn for 11 hours...fuck my life...but anyways also the big assignments are just long to do, it's not at all hard but it's soo long brother i fucking hate being a student in France, fuck this country education.

Please, I swear i am alive. I am not posting because i was working this holidays and i also had a musical internship, imagine that i wake up at 8 a.m and the internship finish at 18h30 and i come back at home at 19h 15. Plus i need to exercice because the songs are hard so have mercy on me.
          
          If I don't write that my fanfictions are discontinue it's means i just really don't have the time.
          
          
          Lol also the curse of being a fanfiction writer hit me again. Guess what? I found out that my two parents met when they were both in the same cult and I realize that i was raised with the same principles as the cult…So…it kinda shock me and for 2 weeks i didn't write anything lol. Anyways if someone was curious about my lore look at this one!!...It's nice you are learning this information at the saem time as me.
          
          Ps: also i don't know when i could update because I need to do some assignments again for my school
          

Nah bruh, can't believe life jyst said to me "oh you are complain because of two big tests ? What aren't you happy that you need to learn 15 pages for the 2 tests ? Well now you have 6 or 5 tests this week!" ...so yeah, i have to learn 9 double-sided sheets for a history test then i have a maths test, it's okay because i am good in maths but after i have on wednesday a Physics and chemistry test...after on thursday i have a french test and after all that i have another long test in science and i need to know all vocabulary and everything on the 9 double-sided sheets....
          
          But now i understand how my karma works so i will say..."Oh i am soo excited! I love all thsi work! it's such a motivation to live! Wow such a easy week! can't understand how some people can hate school! it's the best thing, trust me!"