!!!TW!!! MENTIONS OF ED!!!
His ex was so pretty. Her hair was long and as bright as the sun. Her facial features had no flaws. Her figure was slim, and had no blemishes, no scars. She was tall, and her skin was pale. She seemed popular, and looked to have many friends.
Why did he get with me? I'm nothing like her. My hair is dark, short, and has awful curls. I have ache scars littering my face. I'm fat, and have scars here and there. I'm short and stubby, and my skin is an ugly dark tanned color. I'm not popular, I have a few friends. And to top it all off, I act weirdly and differently. Most definitely in ways she wouldn't have acted.
And her sense of fashion? It's beautiful. She can do her makeup perfectly. Her clothes fit her like a glove. And her style is so trendy and fashionable.
I don't know the first thing about make up. I can only put on mascara since it's the easiest thing to do. I can't wear that many different types of clothes. I either can't put an outfit together, or it looks horrible on me. She can wear crop tops, and I can't or else my fat will show.
Her name is also way more beautiful than mine. Her name sounds elegant, and special. Mine name is not. Mine sounds weird, and gross.
I feel like I should lose weight for him, even though he says I'm perfect the way I am. That's hard to believe though, when I'm his first bigger girlfriend.
Is he not embarrassed to be seen with me? I'd look down in shame if I was dating myself. I look at the other girls, faces with make up, slender figures and wearing cute clothes. I only have mascara on. I look down at myself, and I'm wearing a sweater and jeans. Everything in my brain is telling me to lose weight, but I don't want to relapse, not again. But I feel like he might be happier if I lost weight. But I don't want to burden him with my issues if he finds out. Why can't I just be pretty?